Sunday, September 19, 2021

Long Distance Banding: sub boy r...


A New Beginning: In sub boy r's own words...

     The past 48 hours have been some of the most rewarding and fulfilling in my life. Because on Friday evening I was banded for the first time.

     My first meeting with Mistress Patty was a few weeks ago. She patiently and thoroughly explored my dreams and desires. In short, I want to live life as a castrated male, with no more testosterone or libido. Mistress Patty encouraging me to say these things out loud, and being honest with her and with myself, was a major step forwards for me. She told me to buy a tri-bander, and we booked our meeting for Friday evening.

     On Friday I was excited but also quite nervous. Mistress Patty soon put me at my ease and with great kindness, care and patience talked me through exactly what she wanted me to do. The first band was hard to get on. It was fiddly getting both testicles through the band, and when I started to loosen the tension to ease the band off the three prongs, it slipped off one of them before I was ready and the band smacked into my testicle with great force – which was highly painful! The second prong released easily, and the third which much more effort but suddenly I realized that the band was on! There was a wave of pressure which was more of an ache than a pain, which soon subsided. My heart raced for a while, but it was mainly out of excitement. For the first time in my life I had been banded and taken the first step towards the new me!

     Mistress Patty was very encouraging during this time, asking lots of questions which I suspect was to distract me a bit from any pain and discomfort. I was just wondering how long I was to keep the band on (I had assumed the first time would only be a few minutes) when Mistress Patty told me to load another one on the tri-bander. I was momentarily stunned. Should I do it? Then I thought, of course I should. By now I had complete trust in Mistress Patty and I wanted to show her I was serious about this. So a second band went on next to the first. It actually went on much easier – it was slightly harder pulling the testicles through because they were quite a bit tighter due to the first band, but it seemed easier getting it off the prongs. Now this felt real. Now I knew that serious damage was starting to be done to the spermatic cords. And totally at peace with it and happy!

    Fairly soon I started to feel nauseous, to the point of bile flooding into my mouth. Mistress Patty explained that this was because the cords were being damaged, and advised me to apply ice under the scrotum. This helped but soon I began to feel shaky and Mistress Patty let me cut the bands off. This itself is an intensely painful experience – when the rubber finally gives way after much careful cutting, they release with a snap that sends immense pain through your body and makes you cry out.

     The bands had caused some irritation and minor bleeding, and left deep marks on the skin. The first thing I noticed was that my scrotum and testicles were completely numb. And I felt great – a wave of euphoria came over me and kept me on a crest of excitement for a couple of hours, at which point the adrenalin stopped and I fell fast asleep, sleeping better than I have for ages.

     The next morning, I awoke with a semi-erection, but some exploratory fiddling showed me that there was no way anything was going to happen. And I didn’t want it to. My scrotum was still numb and the skin still sore, but I felt completely at peace. Mistress Patty has said that she will help me take care of such soft erections, and I really look forward to that. Throughout Saturday I was tired, but happy. Today some (but not all) of the feeling has returned, and I still feel great! One difference today is that my scrotum is much tighter than it normally is.

     This was the first step on my castration journey, a journey that we have agreed will end in Mistress Patty’s hands with her burdizzo. Before then I hope to enjoy more banding experiences under Mistress Patty’s instruction. Hers is now the guiding hand and voice in this, the most important part of my life.

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Sunday, August 15, 2021

Long Distance Results: Sissy michelle


Results: Sissy michelle's own words...

In the beginning when I met MsPatty I had a thing for cross dressing. After a brief phone call She agreed to meet me. But of course She insisted that I dress prior to our meeting and arrive all dressed up. When arriving and entering Leather Realm MsPatty immediately commented on my legs high heels and clothes that I wore. I think at this point she had planned on how all our sessions would go. She remarked on how there was a bulge in my skirt, and with legs like mine that I didn't need testicles. After a little meet and greet conversation to get aquatinted I was in restrains and before I could blink the testicles were inside the jaws of the burdizzo with pressure being applied to the handles. Was I about to loose them? MsPatty showed mercy and that day I left Leather Realm with a new understanding. i was the submissive and told what to do!

    In our long distance phone session that followed I was told to stretch the spermatic cords regularly, which i did, But soon after our sessions took a different direction with being instructed to buy different items for our sessions. A bander and castration rings, large rubber bands, dildo, and a nylon stocking to have on hand for various stretching and tying application. Has things first started the bander was used with the castration rings being placed placed on my scrotum for ten to twenty minutes. This would render a certain calm to my libido which i was thankful for, usually lasting a couple of weeks. Then once again i would schedule another session seeking the relief of a very active and i may add at this time annoying libido. The calm was great but only lasted a few weeks. Has time went on during the phone sessions that followed, i noticed the bands being left on long and longer, MsPatty being pleased with the increasing time.  At longest just short of an hour. Along with the castration bands around the scrotum additional rubber bands were to be placed on the clit, just behind the head, then mid shaft, and again at the base near the body. This left me completely numb down there. The result was my two weeks of no libido went to a month or possibly a little longer. But a different side effect then became obvious, I could no longer get an erection or could i ejaculate. These functions are pretty much gone has a result. If there is an occasional erection it is not very firm, i could not have sex with a woman unless it was with my tongue. And to ejaculate is rare and small in quantity. Oh by the way since i did mention small, the size of my clit has shrunk to half its original size. Testosterone test levels have dropped into the low range. All this results from a few in person sessions and many phone sessions.

    I must say with all the changes that have gone on, my sexual preference has changed to being more open along with my feminine side being dominate in my life. Strange what the future holds and how guided by MsPatty has redirected my life in such a positive way.

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Sunday, August 8, 2021

Long Distance Session Results: sissy michelle...

Over the years, I've been asked more than once whether or not Phone Sessions or for that matter any long distance session via Text, Email, Skype/Zoom or Twitter DM can involve medical especially involving Castration Fetish or Body Modification. Can Castration and or Body Mod long distance sessions actually produce results? Yes, long distance sessions can most definitely involve Medical which includes Castration/Body Mods and can produce desired results. 

When using My Session Contact Form to schedule a long distance session, make sure you have the needed supplies which will be used during our session. If our shared fetish involves needles, make sure you have needles for Me to use. If our shared fetish is Castration Banding, make sure you have a Castration Bander. Precaution items are also a good idea like latex gloves and alcohol pads. 

Do you wish to schedule a long distance session but don't have the ability to do phone or cam sessions? Email, Text Message or Twitter Direct Messages for an hour block of time uninterrupted are also options which can produce the same results as phone sessions or can be used to discuss the fetishes such as Castration that we share. 

Instructing sissy michelle to use a Castration Bander which places a wide band just above the testicles within the scrotum, this time it was left on for almost an hour. All the while, I instructed her to slide a hard cock deep into her cunt. As you can see above, she was quite sore and red when the band was removed. Days afterwards, her libido dipped while the spermatic cords healed which also prevented her from ejaculating with My property between her thighs. 

Panties simply doesn't look good covering an erect clit. How to correct this? Those thick, wide bands you find on broccoli can fix that. Yes, again sissy michelle this time was instructed to wrap 3 bands in specific areas of the clit for close to an hour. Immediate results was for a few days, she was unable to achieve an erection resulting in smooth panties. 

For those searching for long term results just as sissy michelle does, multiple phone sessions can produce longer, more permanent results as you can see from her Testosterone results within the top picture. The desired goal? To decrease her testosterone and have smooth panties permanently. <wicked grin> 

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Sunday, July 11, 2021

An Afternoon with sissy slut t...

Sissy slut t came to bring Me pleasure and I knew exactly how I was going to enjoy him. After restraining him by wrapping him up in pallet wrap, I secured him to the cage table. Soon after I sat back, smoked a cigarette and ever so often placed the blazing hot cherry of it against his sensitive nipples. After putting out the cigarette, I began using a candle to coat his nipples and dripping hot wax over his groin. To change it up, I randomly shot ice cold water over his secured body till I had My fill. Finally, I placed My nailing board under his loose scrotum and secured it. With a smile, I began stretching out his scrotum and using horseshoe nails to secure the thinned out ball sack. One after the other, I began nailing each horseshoe nail with a hammer till I reached 10. 

To celebrate reaching 10 nails, I attached birthday candles to each nail head then lite them up. Watching the flames dancing as the wax melted and flowed down the nails till reaching the sensitive skin of the scrotum, a huge smile crossed My lips and giggles escaped as he squealed from the hot wax. 

Yes, I am feeling generous so you will find the video below on the Medical video gallery under, Flaming Hammer. 

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Monday, July 5, 2021

Can He? Vaginal Penetration...sub jason.

Not long after I banded sub jason then injected My balls between his thighs with Everclear back in December 2019, the big question became whether or not he could actually have traditional sex. My intention was to leave a lasting reminder, leaving My mark deep within My balls between his legs not render them useless. Even after numerous testosterone tests, the question remained. Could he remain hard enough to slide his cock deep into an eager vagina without any form of erectile medication? If he could, could he maintain it longer than a couple of minutes? The results from the t-tests continue to remain in the low range but he has been able to achieve an erection for a short time with physical stimulation. Considering all of this, there was a chance even though slim that he could but there was only one way to find out.

Recently an opportunity came to sub jason to test if he could in fact have traditional sex with his last sexual partner. The last time that he had felt a warm wet pussy wrapped around his fully functioning cock had been over 2 years prior to December 2019. Understandably, he was nervous to experiment because no male wants to fail especially with a previous partner. She had enjoyed his throbbing, rock hard member deep within her, but what would happen this time? If he did fail, would she question him or totally shame him for his failure? Perhaps he would once again feel her warmth engulf his cock as her wet pussy had before. Knowing My desire to have this question answered and his curiosity, he went to visit her for a few days. 

Three days before I met with him, he sent Me a text but I instructed him to not tell Me anything till My balls between his thighs was back where they belonged, in My hands. The anticipation was high and I counted the hours till I would have My answer. With giggles and a smile that I just couldn't stop, I welcomed him in and chatted a bit before I wrapped him in pallet wrap and placed a hood over his head. To make sure he was securely restrained, I used the medical straps to secure his wrapped body to the cage table. Just how I prefer him, he wasn't going anywhere till I decided to release him. 

The answer to My question, was he able to achieve an erection long enough to have vaginal sex? After bringing her to orgasm multiple times with finger stimulation, he was able to achieve an erection but blame it on position or timing, he was unable to maintain an erection long enough to penetrate her.

As you can see from the picture above, with a cock ring and electro along with physical stimulation he was able to achieve and maintain an erection for a short time though not a full erection.

Above you can see that he has a fuller erection with the help from a cock ring as well as a penis pump. If he was able to maintain this erection, he could actually penetrate. Of course at this point, it's unlikely. 

To look back at sub jason's journey so far, search My blog for "sub jason" or "Everclear" beginning at the end of December 2019. The blog entries also has pictures of his journey. The videos are below on My Medical video gallery. 

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Sunday, June 27, 2021

An Evening with sub jason..

My time with sub jason began with rendering him helpless by restraining him as well as taking control over his bladder. As he laid restrained, I used My Stinger stick to send electric shocks into that bit of flesh between his thighs that identifies his gender. All the while, reminding him of the experiment that will soon answer whether or not traditional sex is possible for him now. 

Awhile later, I moved him and spread his legs wide as his feet was in the stirrups above him. Exposing My balls between his thighs. For those with questions about what the Everclear injections has done since December 2019, I answer questions.

And yes, I have videos to share below on My video gallery.

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Testosterone Results: sub jason


The results from September 2020 through to the most recent June 2021 from sub jason. As you can see, based on previous results it continues to be in the low range with slight improvement.

My balls between his thighs has changed so much since December 2019, not only physically but hormonally. For the rest of sub jason's life, he will have a permanent reminder of how I have changed it.

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Sunday, June 20, 2021

Return of Fet w...

After the last year with the pandemic and so much being put on hold, it's so wonderful to start getting back to normal. My normal, the return of Fet w. 

Soon after restraining him rendering him helpless, I began sliding his cock and balls into My acrylic press. What a stimulating sight, his cock pressed between 2 clear slabs of acrylic and his balls forced forward. Totally exposed. One by one, I began sliding 22g x 4 inch needles into his ripe balls. Giggling as I watched ball juice dripping from the needles. Not long after, I began inserting needles into his cock head as he squealed. Each bit of noise that escaped from his lips caused My panties to get even more wet.  

Sliding My finger deep into his piss hole. Fucking that huge piece of meat between his thighs. So sexy....

And yes, I am in such a lovely mood that I have videos to share on My Video gallery link below. 

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Monday, June 14, 2021

An Evening with Fet J...

My evening with Fet J began with giving him his first banding experience with the Tri-bander. At the same time, I began pumping his breast area with his Noogleberry Breast Pumping System which is amazing. I REALLY want one. In preparation for our time together, he had been for 2 months prior using the Noogleberry every couple of days for 30 minutes each time. 

At 35 minutes, I used My scalpel to cut the banding ring from his scrotum and began infusing his breast. Because of the preparation with the Noogleberry, I infused each breast with 400ml's of saline. I gave him such a beautiful set of C-D cup breasts for his first time. Look at that cleavage. Almost big enough to titty fuck. LOL 

As I was giving him a huge set of tits, I was also injecting those bits between his thighs with saline this time while they was restrained in the acrylic press. Slowly, I injected a total of 10ml's of saline into each testicle. I also skewered that cock with needles, using them as conductors for electricity. This is preparation for the future. 

And yes, within the next few hours, I will be adding video to My video gallery below. 

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Sunday, June 6, 2021

My Permanent Reminder

My Permanent Reminder

(by sub jason, from MsPatty’s PoV)

So proud that package
Between your thighs
Fueling strong libido
Frequent stiffness arise

My two boys n’one-eye
Three musketeers’ muff diving fun
Sow male oats at will
Seek My guidance? nope, nada, none

Each Christmas Me they visit
Giving themselves as gift exquisite
Plump and soft in warm hands
Deliciously ripe for My grand plans

My golden ring closes
My boys get sleepy
My Everclear infuses
Two nuts marinate deeply

The hour quickly passes
Sharp steel snaps the band
Hearing My wicked chuckles 
you... try to understand

Testosterone falling   
Chastity edge missing
one-eye sad & retracted
My panties wet & juicing

A permanent reminder 
Eternal frustration
Struggles for hardness
Fails at penetration?

Memories of orgasmic highs
In your hand a fallen tree
My balls between your thighs
Belong to ME!

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Sunday, May 30, 2021

An Afternoon with Sissy Slut t...


As sissy slut t was tightly restrained and being drugged, I amused Myself by inserting 20 needles into his cock head and sliding a 4 inch 22g needle straight thru the shaft of his cock. And yes, I even took video and I am feeling generous so you may watch the fun below on My video link.

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Sunday, May 23, 2021

After Effects: sub jason, 1 year and 5 months update ...


From a year ago (@ 5-months), sub jason filled out this form with some points of castration experiences made by others.  his answers then, and now at 17 months, appear side-by-side:

For the first month or so:

    You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.

 5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.
17Mos: i feel sexually inadequate between my thighs. 

    You will gradually lose your sex drive.

 5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later. While some has returned, it's still currently low.
17Mos: The interest has returned.  The ability (and confidence) to perform has not.

    Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.

 5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.
17Mos: After any release, the desire/interest to do so again disappears for at least 2-3 days.  Net average releases remain at 1-2/week.

Past a few weeks to a month:

You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.

 5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.
17Mos: i still feel the occasional random hot flash, and with hotter evenings or more physical activity being the potential trigger.

    Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.

 5Mos: It lost ~20% of it's former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.
17Mos: i have not regained any additional capacity, and achieving sufficient firmness remains an effort.  Where i used to feel it when erections were happening, i now only seem to notice when a semi-erection is retracting.

    Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.

 5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.

17Mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was a year ago, and affects my ability to become and stay aroused.

    As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.

 5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.

17Mos: Some additional feeling has returned, along with interest, but it has not translated into much additional functionality.

    Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.

 5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume, and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.

17Mos: Although volume measurements indicate a return to low-normal human size, visually, they are only about 2/3 of their former size.

    Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.

 5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.

17Mos: i remain unable to gain and maintain any erection without physical stimulation, and it's quality remains reduced.

    M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 17Mos.

    M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 17Mos.

    You may experience more emotional episodes.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 17Mos.

Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.

    You may lose upper body muscle and strength.

 Not seen yet.

    You will likely gain abdominal fat.

 No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so a year later due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical activity.

    You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.

 5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1-2 month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.

17Mos: The interest has returned, but my inability to perform (perceived or actual) has me hesitant to pursue.

    Mustache and bear growth reduces dramatically

 Not seen yet.

    Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.

 Did not occur, although some slowing of baldness may have happened.

    You will feel as if you are asexual.

 Did not occur.

    Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.

 Did not occur.

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Sunday, April 18, 2021

Latest Update: sub jason...

The changes sub jason has experienced since December 26, 2019, after I injected 3cc of Everclear at 30 minutes into an hour-long banding:
- he no longer experiences 'morning wood' or fantasy-driven erections.
- he struggles to gain and maintain an erection with both physical and mental stimulation.
- his erection has lost ~1" length, and it's thickness is slightly less.
- he struggles to reach and control his climax, and reports less euphoric enjoyment after.
- he makes fewer strong pulses, reports feeling they are incomplete as they quickly fade, like there is nothing left in the tank.
- his release is not as thick, is poorly mixed, and quantity is less, even after 1-2 weeks of chastity.
- he reports another equal release takes about a week of abstaining.
- Testosterone tests show a significant ~2/3 reduction in male hormone produced from My balls, with little change in the past ~6 months.
- he cannot identify any significant improvements in his libido since the end of summer 2020, which match the testosterone test results.
- My nuts appears to have 1/3 less volume than before.

his months of private updates tell Me he wants to go back to his slutty ways, but My banding and needles of Everclear have taken that all away.

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Sunday, April 4, 2021

Testosterone Results: sub jason.


The latest results from sub jason's most recent testosterone test has arrived from March 26th, 2021. As you can see, based on previous results it continues to be in the low range.

It still amazes Me with very little effort, I have changed My balls between his thighs and his libido so much. <wicked grin> Yes, even simply thinking about it still gets Me wet. 

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Sunday, March 28, 2021

Friday Night with sub jason...

Yes indeed, I amused Myself with My balls between sub jason's thighs once again. After sending a urethral catheter deep inside of him to take control over his bladder and making sure the medical restraints was tight, I began the scrotal infusion. Soon I began adding multiple electro attachments to his nipples, cock head, pelvis, just under the ball sack and deep inside his ass. To say it was a stimulating experience is an understatement. Restrained and helpless, unable to move as the saline flowed into his scrotum and all the electricity penetrating's over various parts of his body. <wicked giggle> 

Moving him over to the bed with his ankles restrained high in the stirrups and his wrists slightly above his body, his scrotum that resembled a ripe melon was fully exposed. How could I resist smacking such a huge set of balls? Over and over again, I slapped the huge saline filled scrotum enjoying the sound it made as he squealed from his suffering. 

Oh YES! I even have video which I will be sharing tomorrow so keep checking back. 

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Current Measurements: sub jason.


- Left testicle:

March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635
July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407
Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520
Sept 2020: 3.9cm x 3.2cm x 1.9cm -> 99.324
Oct 2020: 3.85cm x 3.2cm x 1.85cm -> 95.470
Nov 2020: 3.95cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 101.011
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18

- Right testicle:

March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155
May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166
Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155
Sept 2020: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 126.803
Oct 2020: 4.2cm x 3.5cm x 2.35cm -> 144.701
Nov 2020: 4.35cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 140.304
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

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After Effects: sub jason 15 month update...


sub jason’s 15 Month Summary Update

In the period before each visit to MsPatty, She would have me do lead-up chastity, and months of scrotum stretching.  i would be instructed to wear the weight/spacer rings for several hours each day.  i would easily get spontaneously hard during that time with the constant tug between my thighs, but never permitted a release.  i was also to use a parachute a few times a week, with several lbs attached for a shorter period of time.  By the fall of 2019, the chastity lead up period had reached 3+ months.  The stretching was sufficient that MsPatty had successfully infused 2000cc or similar amounts earlier in the year.  i also had not had sex in over 2 years at that point.  MsPatty knew She had me well on edge as the December 2019 visit approached.

As verbally promised the November prior, MsPatty’s hour banding in December had quickly shut down Her testicles between my thighs.  Within hours, as my testosterone levels fell, 3+ months of chastity’s hormonal edge faded, and the early symptoms of castration would appear by the next morning.  Her surprise needles of Everclear are now known to have had a devastating internal effect.  Some permanent damage seems apparent, producing in this long and frustrating recovery.  Measurable healing gains are now difficult to identify, implying it has slowed or stopped.  Although testicle volume has steadily improved, they remain smaller, firmer, and less functional.  As one year passed, my overall testosterone level was much lower than most healthy males.  Considering the amount of time which has passed, my hopes for a full recovery have faded.  i had speculative hope for an 80% recovery one year ago.  Even that now seems unlikely.  Some significant level of permanent sexual dysfunction seems inevitable.

Since MsPatty’s modifications that December 2019 evening, the weight rings and parachute openings are now too large, and they eventually slip off.  The spontaneous erections from lead up chastity no longer happen.  The erections made possible from manual stimulation and best effort are reduced, about ~1" less and some loss of girth.  Explaining my struggle for release control, recovery, and it's quantity/quality is complex because they are all related.  The simplest version is that an average release from manual stimulation is possible after about a week of abstinence.  i have no viable capacity for 'round two' immediately after.  With the poor erections/high maintenance effort to stay hard comes very weak release control.  The overall zone where penis and scrotum connect to my torso are at times slightly sunken/atrophied when compared to memories and pictures from prior.  The scrotum has retained much of the stretch achieved despite no stretching since just before that visit.  

What began over 5 years ago as a journey exploring castration fantasy has become much more.  MsPatty has told me that Her modifications to Her testicles between my thighs on December 26, 2019, have instead greatly exceeded Her expectations.  She said last July that She sheds no tears over the dramatic blow my libido has taken, nor the resulting erectile dysfunction.  In hindsight, i departed Her space the next morning a castrate male possessing only my memories of sex from 35+ years before.  my reports of frustration and struggle since continue to entertain Her dreams and fantasies.   Another full testosterone test will be sent off during my next visit to MsPatty.  It has been 15 months since i knew a strong libido, and the sexual rewards it once brought me.

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Testicle Internal Effects: 15 month, sub jason.


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Sunday, March 7, 2021

An Afternoon with Fetishist w...

Ahh yes, I was finally able to enjoy Fetishist w after so many months that he was so far away. As almost every time that I get My hands on him, I forced My fist deep within his ass after slowly opening him up with various dildos. Afterwards, I used a cock pump to show off his prolapse. Not long after, finger fucked that huge cock of his like it was just a slutty bitch. Oh yes, I have eye candy to share above as well as on My video gallery below. 

Of course I also have revisited videos updated to 1080p so they are so much better to enjoy that I posted today. 

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Monday, March 1, 2021

Current Measurements...sub jason.

- Left testicle
March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635
July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407
Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520
Sept 2020: 3.9cm x 3.2cm x 1.9cm -> 99.324
Oct 2020: 3.85cm x 3.2cm x 1.85cm -> 95.470
Nov 2020: 3.95cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 101.011
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557

- Right testicle
March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155
May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166
Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155
Sept 2020: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 126.803
Oct 2020: 4.2cm x 3.5cm x 2.35cm -> 144.701
Nov 2020: 4.35cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 140.304
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761

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Monday, February 15, 2021

The Old Becomes New Again

 I will be spending the next day or so converting the older Castration/Medical Fetish Pages 2006 - 2010 and 2011 - 2018 to the newer blog format that is organized by month/year. This will include pictures but will not include every single update since some was simply saying who I had enjoyed that week. After they are converted, I will leave the original pages up for a short time before removing them.

Sunday, February 14, 2021

After Effects: sub jason 14 month update...

14 Month Update Summary, directly from sub jason.

This journey exploring castration fantasy? with MsPatty began over 5 years ago when She reclaimed ownership of Her balls between my thighs.  Since then, it included several brushes with a diminished libido along the way.  This time, the experience has been more reality than fantasy.  

In hindsight, i was able to indulge in many rewarding heterosexual activities for ~40 years...until December 26, 2019.  That evening, MsPatty left Her mark, equal to Her Infinity brand, deep inside her testicles between my thighs.  The ~14 months since then have been a struggle to regain a libido and viable sexual function.  It now seems as though the healing process has slowed.  What has already returned may be all that is going to.  

Reviewing MsPatty’s testicle volume measurements since their acute atrophy ~1 year ago, indicates a steady physical recovery. Both have recovered to an average volume range.  my testosterone level tests have not shown the same promising results.  They are providing much less testosterone than before.  Their feel is still smaller than i recall.  Also, during self-examinations, firmer internal contours hint at MsPatty’s changes inside.

Even with world events as they are, several opportunities appeared to enjoy sex with a lady friend.  They were all missed because i am unable to participate.  It has been a repeated source of amusement for MsPatty knowing Her part in the reason why.

In March, another full testosterone test is planned as is an exam visit. Unless the test results provide an encouraging result, my opportunity window for further improvement appears to be closing.  Whether temporary or permanent, MsPatty remains thrilled that these memories of becoming sexually inadequate will remain with me forever.

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