Monday, February 21, 2022

Long Distance Banding: sub boy r's 4th...


In sub boy r's own words:

 Last night I had my fourth banding session with Mistress Patty.

To begin with, we chatted about how I had been since the last session.  I was able to report that I have not had an erection in the last two weeks, nor any desire to orgasm.  In addition, everything feels normal about my testicles in terms of size and texture, although my scrotum is more often tight and constricted than loose and hanging low.

Because it was only two weeks since my last banding, we only used one band this time rather than two.  I am always reassured by how Mistress Patty has my welfare in mind as a priority.  The band went on easily, as did the three penis bands. I am certainly finding it easier each time to fit all the bands.

With the three bands on, my penis resumed its normal length.  This is in contrast to how it has been recently.  In addition to our banding sessions, I have been fitting the three penis bands for half an hour every 3 days, in accordance with Mistress Patty's instructions.  This prevents erections, including morning erections.  And it seems that a side effect of this is to reduce the size.  The head of my penis has stayed about the same size, but the shaft has virtually disappeared most of the time.  And as I am uncircumcised, I have a large amount of loose skin at the tip.  I will have to see what this is like post castration and may well want to get circumcised in due course.

Mistress Patty asked me about arousal, and whether I get aroused.  It's interesting, because I do - but what that means is that my breath gets quicker, my heart rate goes up, and I feel a pleasurable warmth in my stomach and loins.  But no hint of an erection or desire to do anything about it.  For me this is the perfect type of arousal.

We spent some time discussing the pain and discomfort of being banded.  I had pain in three ways last night.  Firstly, I have felt nauseous each time I have been banded, and although this wasn't so bad last night, I did have quite a painful stomachache.  Secondly, there was the dull ache in my scrotum that always accompanies banding.  And finally, last night (for the first time) I had a really sharp pain underneath my scrotum where the band was obviously pinching a piece of skin.

In due course, when the pain was no longer bearable, Mistress Patty had me remove the bands.  The band above my testicles came away easily but with the normal sharp momentary jolt of pain.  Then the blessed relief and euphoria were instantaneous!

Each time we do this I know that I am on the right path and that I want to live as a castrated male.  So much so that we have now agreed that when travel allows me to visit Mistress Patty, she will carry out my castration.  Whilst I will be honest and say that I don't relish the pain and discomfort of the process (for me, the act of castration is in no way erotic), I am excited about achieving the outcome.  And the detailed planning that we discussed for our meeting both reassured and excited me.

All in all, this was another wonderful experience, at the hands of a skilled and thoughtful operator.  It's funny, and I said this to Mistress Patty, she is known as "Cruel" Mistress Patty, but I have never met anyone more caring or considerate! 

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Sunday, February 6, 2022

Long Distance Banding: sub boy r's 3rd

In sub boy r's own words:

 This week I had my third banding session with Mistress Patty, and it was as powerful an experience as the first two.

Once Mistress Patty had checked that I had everything necessary to hand, she got straight to business and had me put the first band on.  I am getting more used to this now, and it seemed to go on smoothly, although it was harder work pulling my testicles through the band because my scrotum was much tighter than normal.  Once on, I felt the usual stab of pain in the spermatic cord, followed by a dull ache in my testicles. There was also some sharp pinching in the skin under the band, which I couldn’t do anything about because there is no give in the band at all once it is on.

Very shortly after this, Mistress Patty had me put the second band on. Last time I banded, I got some small blisters of skin trapped between the two bands, which took some time to heal. I was keen to avoid that this time, so made sure that I overlapped the second band very slightly on the first.  The pain increased, and I was soon needing to put ice under my scrotum to try to ease it.

Next, Mistress Patty told me to fit the three penis bands.  I have used these regularly over the past few months except for two periods (illness and Christmas), and they really work in preventing any erections, including morning or night-time erections.  I have found them to be invaluable in helping me confirm that I am on the right path. I want to be testosterone free, and thus erection and orgasm free, which is why I want to be castrated. Going weeks at a time without an erection or desire to ejaculate has been wonderful and makes totally sure I am doing the right thing.

Mistress Patty then did what she does so well - she asked questions and encouraged me, helping me to work through the pain and discomfort.  I needed to use the ice a lot.  I think, because my scrotum was tight when I fitted the bands, I had placed them very close to my testicles, putting pressure on them and causing more pain.  After a while the nausea began - which it did on the previous occasions too. Bile flowed into my mouth, and I felt as if I might vomit.  But I didn’t, and the feeling passed, and I was able to continue a short while longer.

Then it was time to remove the bands. I found this much easier this time. I have experimented with different tools - nail clippers, nail scissors and this time some small tin snips which worked perfectly!  No nicks or cuts, and very few attempts needed to cut through the bands. The excruciating (but momentary) pain when the bands come off is something you can never prepare for and is impossible to describe!  Mistress Patty told me that I had gone longer with this banding than the previous sessions.

Afterwards comes a fantastic feeling of euphoria. Some of this may well be hormonal as life returns to the genitals. Some of it is probably relief that the pain and discomfort has stopped. But a large part, for me, is because I know I have just taken another step closer to my goal.  One day I will be castrated by Mistress Patty, and with each banding I feel more certain that that is what needs to happen, and I know that I am getting nearer to it.

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