Sunday, July 23, 2023

Latest T-Test Results: sub jason.

Below are the latest Testosterone results for sub jason. 

A blood sample was collected a little over a week prior to our meeting on June 30th for those curious if the test was performed before or after his latest visit. 

*Notice that the previous result is considered "normal" even though the previous scale would have considered it "low." It's not a typo. 

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Sunday, July 16, 2023

Return of Slutty Sissy Lara...

Soon after she entered My door and a short chat, I instructed her to undress then told her to get onto the bed. Quickly, I restrained her arms then placed her feet into the stirrups above the bed which exposed everything. Once helpless, I prepared two 250ml bags of saline with tubing and inserted each needle into her supple breasts. The saline began to flow, causing her breasts to plump up. 

As she lay helpless with breasts beginning to appear, I amused Myself by using a small flogger between her thighs, against her sissy clit. Soon, I slid My well lubed finger into her cunt and began to manipulate her prostate. Quickly she began to squeal from the waves of sensations escaping from deep within her and traveling throughout her body. 

Time to allow her to feel what it's like to have a twat. With a smile, I reached for the razor to make sure that her soon to be twat is smooth. Once I was satisfied, I removed a surgical stapler from its sterile packaging and began to create a fuckable twat. Carefully pushing those bits of flesh between her legs as deep as possible then bring the loose skin together over her flaccid sissy clit then stapling. 

The final cherry on top, sliding My finger into her freshly created twat to prepare for a good fucking. 

Next time, I will definitely be taking video but for now, use your imagination with the pictures above.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #breast infusion, #sissy, #body modification, #medical sadist, #fake twat

Sunday, July 9, 2023

A Look into the Future...Sissy Michelle.

Recently sissy michelle came to visit. I decided to give her another peek into a possible future. After restraining her wrists and putting her feet up into the stirrups, I began to set up the saline for breast infusion. Soon the saline began to flow into her breasts. 

As her breasts began to enlarge, I loaded My Tri-bander with a band and gathered up those bits between her thighs. After pushing her clustered testicles through the loaded bander, I slipped the band from the prongs of the bander and placed it a little over an inch above the testicles onto the spermatic cords. Quickly, I loaded another band then repeated the process 5 more times and released the band just below the previous of each so they would overlap for a total of 6 bands. After 40 minutes, I decided to use a scalpel to cut each band so that she would keep those bits between her thighs for a little longer though she was left with a reminder for a while. 

Not longer after the bands were removed, her much larger breasts that I created had been infused with just under 500ml's of saline each producing large, perky breasts as you can see above. They even look great in a bra which was definitely needed. 

And yes, I even have video to share below on My video gallery. Go take a peek.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #banding, #breast infusion, #sissy, #body modification, #medical sadist 

Monday, July 3, 2023

Visitation: My balls between sub jason's thighs...

Recently sub jason's brought My balls between his thighs for a visit. Most of the visit, I had My hand tightly squeezing and stretching My balls. I continually pulled them tightly away from his body to allow him to adjust to the idea of leaving them with Me one day. 

During this visit, we also discussed that from now till Judgment Day 2023 which is at the end of December, he will only be allowed to release with My balls once or twice a month which will require prior permission and will result in a ruined orgasm. In person, if I allow a release, it will finish with a ruined orgasm, or his prostate will be milked. Above is an excellent example of using a urethral plug and a syringe to achieve this. Next time, I will definitely be taking video. 

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #penile insertion, #urethral play

Sunday, July 2, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 3.5yr Summary


In sub jason's own words...

MsPatty has again requested a summary update of my journey with Her.  As far as functional improvements, very little has changed between my thighs.  my T-test results technically crossed the clinical low-normal line over the winter of 2023.  In the greater picture, my overall testosterone level still remains ~1/3 of what it was prior to MsPatty's modifications in December 2019.  i still experience random hot flashes.  my energy level (libido) to pursue the opposite sex remains low.  What has recently changed for me is my realization of how many of MsPatty's powerful desires are behind this journey.  During the first 4 years, i envisioned my high libido, and MsPatty's will, competed in many rounds of strength and endurance.  Then, during <December 2019's epic engagement>, She effortlessly decimated my libido in an hour.  The last ~3.5 years has effectively been MsPatty toying with what survived, me struggling with the reality of what transpired, and Her waiting patiently to administer the coup de grace.

After the first meeting in December 2015, MsPatty decided She would one day lead me to experience my fantasy of castration.  During the Summer of 2016 visit, She used Her <Burdizzo on both cords> to begin that process.  This allowed Her to demonstrate how fragile a connection they had to me.  She also declared that she was taking ownership of Her testicles.  Via regular physical and psychological strikes, She gradually separated them from the sexual image which i held of myself.  Even while this transpired, Her next desire soon emerged.  She sought to slowly diminish (damage) the function of one of Her nuts between my thighs.  She focused greater physical attention on the slightly smaller right orb, and/or its cord.  Any time i raised a concern, She pointed out that the other one would still try to make up for it...  December 2019's activities would also impose a greater effect upon it's function and size.  During Her recent Judgement Day 2022, MsPatty again targeted her 'little boy', <clamping his cord> for ~5 minutes.  While it appears to have survived Her latest efforts, i continue to feel the cord's ache ~6 months later.  Knowing that MsPatty is always pushing, Her continued pursuit is expected to cause it further functional decline. 

During November 2019, MsPatty decided to surprise me.  In what should have been my 'fantasy castration experience', She attempted to band Her nuts for an hour, but i was unable to last past 30 minutes.  To make up for this, i quickly promised to last the full hour (in December).  But MsPatty always wants more.  She now desired for me to experience an extended period of healing.  She wanted the expected 2-3 months of castration-like symptoms to linger for a bit longer.  She introduced Her acrylic ball press and added Everclear injections to realize this greater result, also increasing the risk for permanent damage.  As She spoke of in <July 2020>, MsPatty more than met and exceeded Her expectations in December 2019.  She feels no remorse at the result.  She took full control of 'Her boys' between my thighs that night.  From this point forward, my ability to engage in and enjoy sexual activities abruptly declined.  Sexual intimacy (i.e. - intercourse) with a woman will never be the same for me.  my efforts to get erect and effect a release is now high, with low a reward.

In the meantime, MsPatty continues to manipulate what little remains of my libido.  For now, i am still permitted to try to engage in sexual intercourse with a willing woman.  However, Her little pill is my only option to reliably get hard for a little while.  It is my only hope to penetrate, while i must still navigate all the complications of intimacy it now entails.  In my only other attempt to get laid ~2 years ago, without a pill, i failed to enter my partner.  Because i must use Her property (Her boys) and Her pill, i am required to notify MsPatty about any opportunity to have sex, and report on what transpired soon after.  Almost six years have now passed since i was last sexually intimate with a woman.

Soon after my first visit Her, MsPatty deemed me to be a chronic masturbator.  In the ~4 years which followed, She gradually reduced my frequency of self-indulgent releases from an average of ~12-14 times/week, to ~1/week.  More recently, that average has fallen further, now with only 22 releases in the first half / ~26 weeks of 2023.  Always desiring more control, MsPatty now requires me to seek Her permission before releasing at all times.  She has warned She will grant it less frequently than before.  Also, when i am permitted to self-release, i am not permitted to enjoy them anymore.  i.e. it must be blocked/ruined.  What i used to enjoy no longer brings me pleasure, and instead my frustration from it brings pleasure to MsPatty.

i know my ongoing struggle with the effects of low testosterone continues to thrill MsPatty.  At the same time, i had never expected to be permanently modified or castrated.  i have slowly come to terms with Her permanent modifications.  This includes the erectile dysfunction and my loss of sexual confidence.  Despite the last three Judgement Days each granting me another year of use of 'Her boys', my mind has clung to the notion that this has all been part of my fantasy castration experience.  Only in the past month have i come to realize one more of MsPatty's deepest desires.  Her desire has been to turn my castration fantasy into my reality.  She knows that, while She plays hard with Her modified 'boys', one day it will be too much.  Once they fail, Her desire will be fulfilled.  

In the meantime, MsPatty calls Her boys home to visit Her every few months, and i must bring them.  MsPatty fully controls what remains of my sex.