Sunday, September 24, 2023

Fet w Returns Again.

 A pleasant surprise, Fet w was able to return to Me much sooner than expected. Of course, I just had to take full advantage of the opportunity. 

Soon after arriving, he was told to strip and to get into position with his feet up in the stirrups. Slowly, I began to open his tight ass up with dildos and inflatable plugs till it opened up wide enough to slide My fist deep into him. And yes, video of his sweet ass being fisted by Me can be found on My video gallery.

Ever play tic tac toe with an acrylic ball press and needles? Fet w and I have. It was beyond stimulating. <wicked grin>

After pressing his balls between the two slabs of acrylic and sliding needles into them, I decided to slide 4 additional needles thru his cock and into the shaft. <wicked giggles> 

Yes! I have more videos to share of our time together below on My Medical Fetish Video Gallery. 

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #Fet W #body modification, #medical sadist, #CBT, #fisting

Tuesday, September 12, 2023

The Return of Fet W...

 Recently, Fet w returned to Me. To begin after a very short chat, I began working on that very large cock between his thighs. Using various urethral sounds to stretch that bitch so that I could eventually finger fuck it. 

Slowly, I forced the 7-silver balled urethral sound down his very tight piss hole till every single ball had been stuffed down that bitch. <wicked giggle> 

Finally with a smile on My lips, I was able to force My finger down deep within Fet w to finger fuck that huge cock of his. 

Such a lovely sight to see, a reminder of feeling Fet w from the inside. <wicked grin>

To end our time together, I began torturing those large nipples. Starting with My teeth, fingernails then I decided to infuse them. Male nipples don't like to be infused but I get what I want. <wicked grin> 

Yes! I have videos to share which will be uploaded later this evening. 

Go take a peek.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #Fet W #body modification, #medical sadist, #urethral stretching, #urethral sounds, #nipple infusion

Sunday, August 13, 2023

My balls come to visit...sub jason.

It's been about 3 1/2 years since I took ownership of My balls between sub jason's thighs, and I remind him of this often. Keeping this in mind, My balls motivated him to bring them to visit. 

When I say that I used most of their visit to squeeze, stretch and smash My balls between sub jason's thighs, I'm serious. <wicked giggle> 

The rest of the time, I used multiple urethral sounds and electro down deep into "mr penis." 

The cherry on top, I allowed My balls to release but no orgasm for sub jason. Ruining his orgasm was beyond HOT. 

Keep an eye out and keep checking back because My video gallery below will be updated sometime this week so you can take a peek.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #everclear, #sub jason, #body modification, #medical sadist

Sunday, July 23, 2023

Latest T-Test Results: sub jason.

Below are the latest Testosterone results for sub jason. 

A blood sample was collected a little over a week prior to our meeting on June 30th for those curious if the test was performed before or after his latest visit. 

*Notice that the previous result is considered "normal" even though the previous scale would have considered it "low." It's not a typo. 

#sub jason, #castration, #EverClear, #medfet, #medSadist, #bodymod, #bodyModification, #banding, #emasculation, #cbt, #LeatherRealm, #MsPatty, #testosterone 

Sunday, July 16, 2023

Return of Slutty Sissy Lara...

Soon after she entered My door and a short chat, I instructed her to undress then told her to get onto the bed. Quickly, I restrained her arms then placed her feet into the stirrups above the bed which exposed everything. Once helpless, I prepared two 250ml bags of saline with tubing and inserted each needle into her supple breasts. The saline began to flow, causing her breasts to plump up. 

As she lay helpless with breasts beginning to appear, I amused Myself by using a small flogger between her thighs, against her sissy clit. Soon, I slid My well lubed finger into her cunt and began to manipulate her prostate. Quickly she began to squeal from the waves of sensations escaping from deep within her and traveling throughout her body. 

Time to allow her to feel what it's like to have a twat. With a smile, I reached for the razor to make sure that her soon to be twat is smooth. Once I was satisfied, I removed a surgical stapler from its sterile packaging and began to create a fuckable twat. Carefully pushing those bits of flesh between her legs as deep as possible then bring the loose skin together over her flaccid sissy clit then stapling. 

The final cherry on top, sliding My finger into her freshly created twat to prepare for a good fucking. 

Next time, I will definitely be taking video but for now, use your imagination with the pictures above.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #breast infusion, #sissy, #body modification, #medical sadist, #fake twat

Sunday, July 9, 2023

A Look into the Future...Sissy Michelle.

Recently sissy michelle came to visit. I decided to give her another peek into a possible future. After restraining her wrists and putting her feet up into the stirrups, I began to set up the saline for breast infusion. Soon the saline began to flow into her breasts. 

As her breasts began to enlarge, I loaded My Tri-bander with a band and gathered up those bits between her thighs. After pushing her clustered testicles through the loaded bander, I slipped the band from the prongs of the bander and placed it a little over an inch above the testicles onto the spermatic cords. Quickly, I loaded another band then repeated the process 5 more times and released the band just below the previous of each so they would overlap for a total of 6 bands. After 40 minutes, I decided to use a scalpel to cut each band so that she would keep those bits between her thighs for a little longer though she was left with a reminder for a while. 

Not longer after the bands were removed, her much larger breasts that I created had been infused with just under 500ml's of saline each producing large, perky breasts as you can see above. They even look great in a bra which was definitely needed. 

And yes, I even have video to share below on My video gallery. Go take a peek.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #banding, #breast infusion, #sissy, #body modification, #medical sadist 

Monday, July 3, 2023

Visitation: My balls between sub jason's thighs...

Recently sub jason's brought My balls between his thighs for a visit. Most of the visit, I had My hand tightly squeezing and stretching My balls. I continually pulled them tightly away from his body to allow him to adjust to the idea of leaving them with Me one day. 

During this visit, we also discussed that from now till Judgment Day 2023 which is at the end of December, he will only be allowed to release with My balls once or twice a month which will require prior permission and will result in a ruined orgasm. In person, if I allow a release, it will finish with a ruined orgasm, or his prostate will be milked. Above is an excellent example of using a urethral plug and a syringe to achieve this. Next time, I will definitely be taking video. 

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #penile insertion, #urethral play

Sunday, July 2, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 3.5yr Summary


In sub jason's own words...

MsPatty has again requested a summary update of my journey with Her.  As far as functional improvements, very little has changed between my thighs.  my T-test results technically crossed the clinical low-normal line over the winter of 2023.  In the greater picture, my overall testosterone level still remains ~1/3 of what it was prior to MsPatty's modifications in December 2019.  i still experience random hot flashes.  my energy level (libido) to pursue the opposite sex remains low.  What has recently changed for me is my realization of how many of MsPatty's powerful desires are behind this journey.  During the first 4 years, i envisioned my high libido, and MsPatty's will, competed in many rounds of strength and endurance.  Then, during <December 2019's epic engagement>, She effortlessly decimated my libido in an hour.  The last ~3.5 years has effectively been MsPatty toying with what survived, me struggling with the reality of what transpired, and Her waiting patiently to administer the coup de grace.

After the first meeting in December 2015, MsPatty decided She would one day lead me to experience my fantasy of castration.  During the Summer of 2016 visit, She used Her <Burdizzo on both cords> to begin that process.  This allowed Her to demonstrate how fragile a connection they had to me.  She also declared that she was taking ownership of Her testicles.  Via regular physical and psychological strikes, She gradually separated them from the sexual image which i held of myself.  Even while this transpired, Her next desire soon emerged.  She sought to slowly diminish (damage) the function of one of Her nuts between my thighs.  She focused greater physical attention on the slightly smaller right orb, and/or its cord.  Any time i raised a concern, She pointed out that the other one would still try to make up for it...  December 2019's activities would also impose a greater effect upon it's function and size.  During Her recent Judgement Day 2022, MsPatty again targeted her 'little boy', <clamping his cord> for ~5 minutes.  While it appears to have survived Her latest efforts, i continue to feel the cord's ache ~6 months later.  Knowing that MsPatty is always pushing, Her continued pursuit is expected to cause it further functional decline. 

During November 2019, MsPatty decided to surprise me.  In what should have been my 'fantasy castration experience', She attempted to band Her nuts for an hour, but i was unable to last past 30 minutes.  To make up for this, i quickly promised to last the full hour (in December).  But MsPatty always wants more.  She now desired for me to experience an extended period of healing.  She wanted the expected 2-3 months of castration-like symptoms to linger for a bit longer.  She introduced Her acrylic ball press and added Everclear injections to realize this greater result, also increasing the risk for permanent damage.  As She spoke of in <July 2020>, MsPatty more than met and exceeded Her expectations in December 2019.  She feels no remorse at the result.  She took full control of 'Her boys' between my thighs that night.  From this point forward, my ability to engage in and enjoy sexual activities abruptly declined.  Sexual intimacy (i.e. - intercourse) with a woman will never be the same for me.  my efforts to get erect and effect a release is now high, with low a reward.

In the meantime, MsPatty continues to manipulate what little remains of my libido.  For now, i am still permitted to try to engage in sexual intercourse with a willing woman.  However, Her little pill is my only option to reliably get hard for a little while.  It is my only hope to penetrate, while i must still navigate all the complications of intimacy it now entails.  In my only other attempt to get laid ~2 years ago, without a pill, i failed to enter my partner.  Because i must use Her property (Her boys) and Her pill, i am required to notify MsPatty about any opportunity to have sex, and report on what transpired soon after.  Almost six years have now passed since i was last sexually intimate with a woman.

Soon after my first visit Her, MsPatty deemed me to be a chronic masturbator.  In the ~4 years which followed, She gradually reduced my frequency of self-indulgent releases from an average of ~12-14 times/week, to ~1/week.  More recently, that average has fallen further, now with only 22 releases in the first half / ~26 weeks of 2023.  Always desiring more control, MsPatty now requires me to seek Her permission before releasing at all times.  She has warned She will grant it less frequently than before.  Also, when i am permitted to self-release, i am not permitted to enjoy them anymore.  i.e. it must be blocked/ruined.  What i used to enjoy no longer brings me pleasure, and instead my frustration from it brings pleasure to MsPatty.

i know my ongoing struggle with the effects of low testosterone continues to thrill MsPatty.  At the same time, i had never expected to be permanently modified or castrated.  i have slowly come to terms with Her permanent modifications.  This includes the erectile dysfunction and my loss of sexual confidence.  Despite the last three Judgement Days each granting me another year of use of 'Her boys', my mind has clung to the notion that this has all been part of my fantasy castration experience.  Only in the past month have i come to realize one more of MsPatty's deepest desires.  Her desire has been to turn my castration fantasy into my reality.  She knows that, while She plays hard with Her modified 'boys', one day it will be too much.  Once they fail, Her desire will be fulfilled.  

In the meantime, MsPatty calls Her boys home to visit Her every few months, and i must bring them.  MsPatty fully controls what remains of my sex.

Sunday, June 25, 2023

Morning Delight with Fet w...

Recently, Fet w came to visit. I decided this time instead of sliding My finger down his piss hole as if I was fucking it, I would send some current down it and aim for his prostate. After a while of causing his prostate to pulsate, I wanted something a bit deeper, so I moved him to the exam table. 

As I placed his legs up high in the stirrups and secured them, I began lubing him up to open him up with a 5-prong speculum. Once the speculum caused his ass to gap wide, I decided to bring a little spark to his life and began using My Violet Wand probe into him. After a while, I brought out one of My fucking machines and watched to gentle motion of My cock slowly penetrating him. 

Watching My cock slide deep, a thought came to mind, and I immediately stopped to find My humbler. After gathering his large balls into My hand, I placed the humbler behind his thighs and secured his balls into it. Quickly, I pulled 2 of the 4 inch 22g needles out of their sterile packing and used each on to skewer his plump balls. Keep an eye out in the next day or two for videos to be posted so you can see what else happened.

 Video will be posted soon so keep checking My Medical Video Gallery below.

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Tuesday, June 13, 2023

A Sunny Afternoon with Fet w...


It was a beautiful sunny afternoon when Fet w walked through My door. With great anticipation, I told him to strip which he did extremely quick. Within moments, I began enemas to prepare him for anal which will begin later but first I had plans between his thighs. 


With his legs high above him in the leather stirrups, I began 2 lines from 2 1000ml bags of saline to infuse his scrotum. As his scrotum slowly grew, I began with a latex gloved finger to stretch his pisshole but I craved skin on skin penetration, so I removed the glove and forced My finger slowly into that huge bitch between his thighs. 

Soon, I craved more so I cleaned up then began sliding into his tight ass. After awhile of sliding into him deep and spreading his void wide, the bags of saline was running dry. Onto enjoying that huge ball sack that I had just created. 

After several smacks and a little time passing, some of the saline had spread into the cock, creating a franken weenie. With the cock head peeking out, I decided to slide some needles into it without disturbing the saline. And yes, I have video to share which will be uploaded in the next day or two. 

With his hard erect nipples begging to be used, I placed a clamp then began sliding needle after needle deep into it, 10 total. The right nipple, looking so juicy, I began to bite, to leave him with a little reminder even if only for a short while. Again, video will be posted soon so keep checking My Medical Video Gallery below.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #scrotal infusion, #NT, #anal, #penile insertion, #needles, #urethral play

Sunday, April 9, 2023

Latest T Test Results...sub jason


Below you will notice that the latest result is now considered "normal" even though the previous scale would have considered it "low." It's not a typo. 

#sub jason, #castration, #EverClear, #medfet, #medSadist, #bodymod, #bodyModification, #banding, #emasculation, #cbt, #LeatherRealm, #MsPatty, #testosterone

Sunday, March 26, 2023

The Return of sissy tammy...

After several months, sissy tammy returned and certainly made My Saturday afternoon. To begin, I restrained her to the end of the bed. 

After restraining her wrists to the sides of the bed and slid her legs into the leather stirrups, I decided to give her some bouncy breasts by administering saline infusions. Once the saline began to flow, I went between her legs and used My Tri-bander. One ring, two ring and finally a third was placed just above the testicles. 

With a smile, I just had to giggle to Myself and reached for the prefilled syringes with 190 proof Everclear and began injecting the EC through multiple injection sites on each testicle till I reached 2ml into each. As the clock hit 65 minutes, I used a scalpel to cut the bands off.

With two juicy breasts quickly forming from the saline infusion upon her chest, I decided to bring out My surgical stapler and give her a twat that I could finger as well as fuck. As you see above, such a sweet sissy pussy to slide My cock into. 

After fucking that pussy between her thighs, it was time to see the squeezable breasts that I created. 

And yes, I have a 12-minute video to share of our time together below on the video gallery.

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #everclear, #castration, #banding, #trybander, #castratix, #sissy tammy

Sunday, March 19, 2023

Latest Comparison...sub jason.


07/09/2019 vs 03/12/2023

With time, clearly there has been a change of size and more within My balls between sub jason's thighs. Just imagine what another year will bring. <wicked giggle>

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #everclear, #castration, #banding, #trybander, #castratix, #judgment day, #sub jason

Monday, March 13, 2023

The Return of Fet w...


When Fet w recently returned, I knew that I was going to have an amazing afternoon. 

After clustering his huge balls and barely fitting them into My CBT press, I began sliding My finger down his pisshole while pressing those balls thin. Soon though, My desires drifted to really fucking that bitch between his thighs, so I removed the press then plunged Myself deep into him.

Now it was time to begin the 1000ml scrotal infusion. Once the saline began to flow into his scrotum, I inserted the 16fr catheter to take control over his bladder. 

After amusing Myself with his ass as his scrotum doubled in size, the entire 1000ml bag of saline had filled it. As you can see above, I just had to dig My nails into My creation. <wicked giggles>

#medfet, #bdsm medical fetish, #cbt #leatherrealm, #ohio mistress, #nurse fetish, #needles, #urethral stretching, #ball press, #scrotal infusion, #catheters, #big balls, #anal speculum

Sunday, February 26, 2023

Current Measurements: sub jason

These are the past and current measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs.

Left Testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286 (1yr)

Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218

Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18

Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51 (2yr)

Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405

Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728

Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (3yr)

Feb 2023: 4.33cm x 3.36cm x 2.44cm -> 148.70*

Right testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916 (1yr)

Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431

Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43 (2yr)

Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567

Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281

Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691 (3yr)

Feb 2023: 4.29cm x 3.15cm x 2.34cm -> 132.456*

* sub jason reports both testicles are still more firm than normal since Judgement Day 2022.

Wednesday, February 22, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 6 Week Summary

sub jason 6 Week Summary

This is from 6 weeks after Judgment Day 2022.  What follows is a summary, in sub jason’s own words, of those events, and the after effects…so far.

Judgement Day 2022 began in the late afternoon of 12/31.  i spent the initial hours being locked in MsPatty’s cage.  In the early evening, after MsPatty decided it was time, i was let out, and received an enema.  i was then restrained on the bed, with my legs spread and ankles high, and the hood & blindfold took away my vision.  MsPatty began Her Judgment Day games with Her Tri-bander.  She applied a stacked series of 4 thick bands and left them on for 25 minutes.  She also used her acrylic press during the banding time.  The stacked bands eventually began to hurt similar to what i remember towards the end of the hour of the single golden band from ~3 years prior until She cut them off.  i know, after a short rest, MsPatty amused Herself in various other ways over the next several hours.  Much of what followed i am missing / short on details, because of Her Judgement at the end.  Because of the posted video, i know MsPatty used the pillory w/the leather slapper. She also did ball punching, and 'stretch & shout'.  i don't recall much detail from that period.

As it became late in the evening, MsPatty applied Her Burdizzo as Judgement to my right cord for ~10 minutes.  She had decided She was again going after the smaller/weaker testicle in my scrotum.  This ‘little boy’ of Hers has been Her ongoing focus since as far back as the second and third visits back in 2016, and also on December 2019, when it received a greater amount of MsPatty’s Everclear injection.  After the clamping ended, i spent the next hour or so shaking, and being held by Her.  my mind was in disbelief of what Her and Her Burdizzo had done, but my body knew something had happened.  MsPatty eventually directed me back into the cage, with a Texas catheter and bag, to try to sleep until morning.  The symptoms from Her Judgement Day 2022 began to show up during the overnight in the cage.

Between the multiple stacked bands and the clamping, both of ‘Her boys’ began to swell up, and became very firm.  The right cord became quite swollen and remained so for over 2 weeks.  The smaller right testicle swelled up even larger than the left for at least the next 3+ weeks.  It has since returned to be slightly smaller, as it was before.  At 6 weeks, both testicles have slowly returned to an approximate size of their Fall 2022 dimensions.  Both are still more firm than they used to be.  The right has varying amounts of tenderness at times, although more diminished in the past week or so.  The right cord has had an ache since Judgement Day, although slowly diminishing over the period.  It is a general ache which is noticeable during certain movements.

MsPatty has required me to report and collect my releases, and provide video or pictures of the output result, to gauge the effects of Her Judgement Day 2022.  i have reported that the urge to achieve a release, since December, is less frequent.  my average before Judgment Day was ~5 days between releases.  It has since become ~7 days between releases.  my fluid output for each release has also fallen.  Compared to the pass three years, i would now classify it as very poor.  Although the output seems thicker, i no can longer produce enough liquid content to truly ‘shoot’ anything.  Instead, it amounts to little more than a blob, or a few dribbles, even with the further extended recharge period.  It has become harder to get and stay erect with physical stimulation.  i am sometimes not fully hard when i achieve release.  i feel a twinge in the right cord as the muscle contracts while approaching the release trigger point.

It seems that MsPatty has further affected the functionality of Her boys between my thighs.  my already low libido has certainly taken another hit.  i felt a few hot flashes driving home, and over several days which followed, although none recently.  mr penis remains more retracted most of the time.  After the events of December 2019, i had expected, then had declining hope for, a reasonable recovery, most of which has never happened.  The very slow improvement progress i had seen through last summer has easily been dealt another setback.  MsPatty has not been encouraging any hope of recovery to my pre-Judgement Day 2022 level like she been had back in early 2020.  i am now thinking that additional permanent damage has transpired, and MsPatty's comments are in general agreement, but She is patient to let time pass and see the long-term results.  Of course, MsPatty also remains amused at my decline in interest/frequency to edge, to achieve a release, and the further decline in my reproductive fluid output.

Soon sub jason will be bringing My balls between his thighs back to Me. At that time, I will be sending his blood sample off to the lab to test his current testosterone level. When those results are in, then we will know what impact that Judgment Day 2022 had. 

Sunday, February 12, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 3 years & 2-month

In sub jason's own words:

After Effects: sub jason, @ 3 years and 2 months update...

From nearly three years ago (May 2020), sub jason filled out this form created from points of castration experiences made by others after his experience on Judgement Day 2019, and each year since.  his answers then, up through now, appear side-by-side:

For the first month or so:

    You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.

 5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.

 1yr5mos: i feel sexually inadequate between my thighs.  

 2yrs5mos: i long for that strong feeling between my thighs to return, but it's merely a echo of a memory.

 Now: It has been so long since i had a libido, i can barely remember what it feels like to have one.

    You will gradually lose your sex drive.

 5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later.  While some has returned, it's still currently low.

 1yr5mos: The interest has returned.  The ability to perform has not.

 2yrs5mos: The interest is in my mind but being unable to physically respond is a constant frustration.

 Now: If one can call what i occasionally feel a sex drive, it may just be distant memories echoing.

    Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.

 5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.

 1yr5mos: After any release, the desire/interest to do so disappears for at least 2-3 days.

 2yrs5mos: While a release after much of a week of abstaining generates some reasonable fluid output (one to two mostly liquid pulses), it is very short in euphoric reward.  Another release sooner is dribbling and unrewarding.

 Now: Masturbation barely produces a release of more than a small blob and some drizzle after Judgement Day 2022, even after a week recharge.  Soon after a release, i have the urge to masturbate again, but i know i won't have anything left to emit.  After several hours pass the urge goes away for a around a ~week.

Past a few weeks to a month:

You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.

 5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.

 1yr5mos: i still feel the occasional random hot flash, and with hotter evenings or more physical activity being the potential trigger.

 2yrs5mos: They are not as frequent as a year ago, but still random, yet tied to physical activity when they do occur.

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, i felt more than several hot flashes over the following week, and then they subsided again.

    Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.

 5Mos: It lost ~20% of it's former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.

 1yr5mos: i have not regained any additional capacity, and achieving that firmness remains an effort.  Where i used to feel it when erections were happening, i now only seem to notice when a semi-erection is retracting.

 2yrs5mos: Only a very minor change noticed since last year.  On some mornings, the hint of a little more thickness sometimes appears, but it is barely noticeable.

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, it seems retracted slightly more often than it was prior.

    Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.

 5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.

 1yr5mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was a year ago and affects my ability to become and stay aroused.

 2yrs5mos: i remain about the same as a year ago, with the ongoing erectile dysfunction / lack of sensitivity / inability to remain erect.

 Now: About the same as last report.

    As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.

 5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.

 1yr5mos: Some additional feeling has returned, along with interest, but it has not translated into much additional functionality.

 2yrs5mos: The drive, or strength, that once emanated from my groin remains absent, with no notable improvement in the past year.

 Now: There has not been any further atrophy since Judgement Day 2022, but my groin has no notable feeling or drive to initiate sex.

    Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.

 5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.

 1yr5mos: Although volume measurements indicate to a return to low-normal human size, visually they are only about 2/3 their former size.

 2yrs5mos: Measurements have stopped as their relative size remains about constant to what was about a year ago.  

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, they again were swollen, with the smaller right exceeding the size of the left for about 3 weeks.  They remain more firm than normal, although the size/ratio between them is back to about what it was 2 months ago.

    Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.

 5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.

 1yr5mos: i remain unable to gain and maintain any erection without physical stimulation, and it's quality remains reduced.

 2yrs5mos: Other than the minor thickening noted on some mornings, nothing else has improved with my erection without the use of an enhancement pill

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, it has become harder to generate an erection from physical stimulation, although still possible.

    M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

    M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

    You may experience more emotional episodes.

All three - Not an issue before at any point.

Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.

    You will likely gain abdominal fat.

 No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so a year later due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical of activity.  i remain heavier and find it difficult much of the time to motivate to get the extra exercise needed to take it off.

    You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.

 5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1–2-month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.

 1yr5mos: The interest has returned, but my perceived inability to perform deters me from pursuing.

 2yrs5mos: What was once a natural activity to engage and potentially explore is no longer natural in execution, with my sexual failure (if events were to get that far) all but certain.

 Now: i know i can't physically engage, so i don't bother to pursue.

    Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.

Now: Did not occur, although slowing of baldness process may have happened.

    You may lose upper body muscle and strength.

    Mustache and beard growth reduces dramatically.

    You will feel as if you are asexual.

    Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.

Now: Neither occurred.


i filled out MsPatty's First Contact questionnaire over 7 years ago. i listed an interest in castration fantasy, which MsPatty was quite pleased to learn. 

Over the course of the next 4 years, that fantasy was explored in different ways.  She attempted several times to cause deeper effects over many visits.  

On December 26, 2019, i experienced the loss of all testosterone production as a result of the hour banding, producing the effects of castration, as She planned.  i had hinted during the Fall lead up conversations that maybe the Everclear from two years prior might play a part, and MsPatty carpe diem.  The effects of the added Everclear, used together with the hour banding, have proven to be a devastating permanent effect. 

MsPatty remains thrilled that i continue to struggle with low testosterone, and the frustration of sexual inadequacy.  MsPatty wanted a long-term reminder and succeeded well beyond Her expectations.  Although there had been small gains in most every quarterly testosterone tests through 2022, additional damage from Judgement Day 2022 appears to have negated much of that progress.

MsPatty points out that i can, with focused effort or a pill, get hard and be driven to release some small amount of semen.  She explains further that this technically means i am not castrated.  i know my reproductive system has been highly compromised by MsPatty's modifications.  The net effect in my daily experience is that i continue to suffer most of the effects of castration.

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Sunday, February 5, 2023

Current T- Test Results: sub jason.

Below are the latest two Testosterone Test results for sub jason. 

The next test will be taken during sub jason's next visit which will hopefully be by April.  

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