Sunday, September 20, 2020

A quickie with Fetishist W...

     My time with Fetishist w this past week was much shorter than expected but I did manage to amuse Myself even if only for an hour. I began by restraining him with My medical restraints then proceeded to open up that bitch between his legs. Since his cock head has girth when hard, using My urethral stretchers was challenging but with time and force I succeeded. As you can see by My eye candy above as well as on My Video Gallery below, in time I expect to be able to fuck his pisshole with My entire finger. 

Sunday, September 6, 2020

After Effects: sub jason 8 month update continues...


8 Month Summary, directly from sub jason.

my libido recovery remains frustratingly slow. Mentally triggered erections are still low or only brief, mild/soft thickening, and more typically ‘stubby’.  Getting a firm erection is possible with sufficient physical stimulation, but there is little room in the relative gap between getting enough hardness to perform and triggering a sexual release.  Recovery after a release remains at a few days - I.e where the urge to perform again returns and a sufficient available ejaculate qty. is available - both remain well below sufficient for follow-up activity.


These dysfunctional symptoms continue to discourage my seeking natural sexual interactions with a woman. It is the fear of failure and embarrassment by being unable to satisfy her in ways i have known how to (and mutually enjoy) in times past.  Using supplements and/or a physical ring to enhance my erection / functionality may offer a one-shot opportunity. Yet, the reality is a healthy libido at my age should enable sexual acts like this about 2-3 times a day (instead of about once a week).  This is certainly an improvement over the previous months of general sexual organ atrophy and systematic failure. At the same time, it only takes a reach down between my legs, after a shower in the morning or when getting ready for bedtime, to feel the overall smaller external ‘package’ that now resides there.  It was once judged average to slightly above (generally desirable) by some of the female gender in the past. 


i continue to wonder how much longer until my recovery plateaus? and will the ‘80%’ hoped for be enough? MsPatty has had several opportunities to examine Her results from December in this past month. She remains thrilled both watching and reading about my struggles and continued shortcomings.

Monday, August 31, 2020

Testosterone Results: sub jason

The latest testosterone results are in from the hour long banding and Everclear injections into My testicles between sub jason's thighs that took place in December 2019. The testicles are continuing to heal and the test will be repeated most likely in December which will mark one year from the original banding/injections.


Latest Update:

After Effects: sub jason 8 month update


Testicle Measurements:

- Left testicle
 March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731322105313
 May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635569221547
  July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407722123598
 Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520508875251

- Right testicle
 March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155158406468
   May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318578947416
 July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166924409794
 Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155094652858

The researched lower and higher averages from before:
4.0cm x 3.0cm x 2.0cm - Volume 100.53096491236
5.0cm x 3.0cm x 2.0cm - Volume 125.66370614045

Monday, August 17, 2020

An Afternoon with sub jason...


How did I amuse Myself with sub jason? I decided to infuse his scrotum again with 1000ml bag of saline to give My balls between his thighs a break this time. Of course I did smack them around quite a bit and kept forcing him to drink water but not allowing him to empty his bladder into the Texas catheter. <wicked giggle>



It's time to bring that huge sack, front and center in the CBT Pillory. As it hung between the two bars, I enjoyed using it as target practice. LOL Smacking it like a huge melon. 



Using the large cock pump, I pumped up his practically useless cock to the width of a pop can. Even effectively useless, it looked great. <wicked giggle> Hopefully by the next update, I will have his testosterone test results in which I will post.

Latest Update:

Sunday, July 26, 2020

After Effects: sub jason 7 month update



Testicle Measurements:

- Left testicle
March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731322105313
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635569221547
 July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407722123598

- Right testicle
March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155158406468
  May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318578947416
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166924409794


The researched lower and higher averages from before:
4.0cm x 3.0cm x 2.0cm - Volume 100.53096491236
5.0cm x 3.0cm x 2.0cm - Volume 125.66370614045

Latest Update:

Sunday, July 5, 2020

Post Session: sub jason. Summary 18 - 26

(Week 18/19)
i can mark an overall slight change of between-releases average 'recovery' time from more than 1/2 week to an improved 2-3 days.  Effort to gain an erection/sensitivity has also improved, along with my general interest in women returning.  Maintaining an erection is still not possible without focused physical and mental effort, so confidence in performing sexually any time soon remains nil.  Releases after longer periods of abstinence are beginning to gain some small reward, but calling them the rewarding orgasms i once knew is stretching the term.

(Week 20/21)
Entering chastity again and restarting oral supplements, along with planning another MsPatty visit toward the end of week 21.  Supplements again bring a noticeable edge to my libido, which is welcome.  Some personal re-measurement of testicle volume also points to an improvement.  The previous atrophied 45-50% of average testicle size i experienced early on is now approaching ~60% (of the estimated former average volume).  Their overall contour is improving with further rounding.

(Week 22/23)
Post visit, i return to my more recent non-boosted libido level with the recently improved 2-3 day recovery window.  Release quantity seems to be slightly improved if i abstain an extra day, so production capacity may have a slight improvement.  A few checks on my average achieved erection length hints at a slight improvement comparing to @ Week 13, although maintaining still takes high focused effort.

(Week 24/25)
my sexual response from mental stimulation has improved somewhat in the recent weeks, and physical response has slight improvement.  This is without supplements involved, nor chastity build-up.  Some natural soft erection responses appear the second week which i had not experienced since before this journey began.  This is encouraging as the 1/2 year mark approaches.  Although increased effort is still needed to reach the excitement peak, the reward of release (something a little closer to the term orgasm) is starting to be felt, and more so when a week release interval is maintained.  i will soon take another testosterone test, and follow up with a MsPatty evaluation visit after the results come in.

(Week 26/6 Months)
my original 10-Week Summary doesn't use the word anywhere, but it is there, every week, between the lines (oh... MsPatty added it to her labels).  That word is castration.  It continues to be a slow crawl out of that nullified state. Overall, i have gained a weak libido that has seen very slow but general improvement over the past ~2-3 months.  Gaining a mentally generated soft erection is sometimes possible; my overall effort to gain one physically has seen some improvement.  This gives me some hope i may emerge from this extended period of sexual dysfunction.  Continued difficulty in maintaining any erection tempers that optimism.  An additional uncertainty is that my recovery could still plateau.  i have taken a home testosterone test this week and sent off the sample.  MsPatty will see my results before i do.  i am again restricted from releases until i visit MsPatty late next month, which will mark ~7 months.

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After reading his own thoughts over the past 2 updates, you can see that his journey has not only been a physical but a psychological one. My testicles are healing which in turn his libido is slowly improving. Keep in mind, while they are healing and will continue to, they will never be the same as they were before he started his journey on December 26th 2019.

 Towards the end of July, I will be meeting with sub jason once again and examining My balls between his thighs. At that time I will be posting an updated video of the after effects from the hour long banding and injections as well as current measurements along with his latest testosterone results.  

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