Sunday, December 5, 2021

Countdown 2021 Begins Now: sub jason.

On December 26th 2019 I injected Everclear into each of My testicles between sub jason's thighs, 30 minutes into an hour long banding.  I chose to allow him to keep My balls for another year but with a reminder. 

Judgement day, December 26th, 2020 then came. One syringe was filled with saline which would allow him to keep My testicles for another year and one syringe filled with enough Everclear to render My testicles truly castrated. I allowed him a choice, a 50/50 choice. With his choice, he was allowed to keep them one more year. 

Once again on December 31st 2021, I will be making My choice whether to allow him to keep My balls for another year or to take them. On Twitter, I am posting surveys, videos and pictures from the last 2 years during this journey. 

Be a part of My decision. Share My posts on Twitter and possibly be a part of this life changing event. 

To view all My posts here on LeatherRealm talking about sub jason's journey, go to LeatherRealm: sub jason.

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Saturday, November 27, 2021

Long Distance Banding Update: sub boy r

 In sub boy r's own words:

Immediately after my second banding, my right testicle was smaller and harder than normal.  I wondered if this indicated permanent damage, and I won’t lie - part of me wished it was. However, about 30 hours after the banding it had returned to a normal size and consistency.

What hasn’t changed though is the tightening of my scrotum - almost all the time it’s much more constricted than normal.  Once or twice I’ve noticed it hanging low, but the norm seems to be a very tight package.

The one problem I’ve had since the second banding is the damage it caused to my scrotum. At the time I assumed the bleeding was due to nicks caused when I cut the band off.  But I now realize what happened.  The two bands were very close to each other, but caught enough skin between them to cause little blisters, which subsequently became sore wounds.  I know now to make sure the second band either overlaps or is so close to the first that no skin damage has been done.  Today is the first day (at +12 days) that I don’t have visible raw wounds.

I have maintained the penis banding. I actually do it every 2 or 3 days because I am so happy with the results.  I haven’t had an erection (not even a morning erection) for weeks now, and I love it!  My penis size has greatly reduced, in fact it seems to be shrinking to nothing - which is another thing I’m very happy about.  I took the attached photo today - 12 days after my last banding.

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Monday, November 15, 2021

Long Distance Banding: sub boy r's 2nd

 In sub boy r's own words:

This week I had my second banding session with Mistress Patty. 

After the first session a few weeks ago I was sore and tight for about 5 days, but after that I seemed to physically return to how it was before.  My libido was definitely down though, which was a good thing. However, I was still getting night-time and morning erections, which I had hoped would reduce.  Mistress Patty therefore started me on a routine which involves placing wide elastic bands (firm but not tight) around my penis for at least half an hour every few days.  This was uncomfortable to start with, but something I have got used to as part of my life.  It has definitely helped - while I still get the occasional erection, they are nowhere near as firm as before.

I was even more excited about our second banding session than I was about the first, probably because I no longer had any anxiety about the unknown.  Mistress Patty was once again a very calm, gentle but firm guide through the whole process, making it very easy to go along with.  We once again started with one band and then added a second, but this time the second one went on much sooner so that I was banded with two bands for longer.  She also had me place the three penis bands on as well.  I won’t hide the fact that there is considerable pain, discomfort and nausea associated with banding. But ice packs help, and Mistress Patty is very good at explaining what is happening and keeping you focused on anything but the discomfort!  It also helps knowing that this is all part of the journey which I have decided to take with Mistress Patty - my journey to castration.  Just to be clear, I have no fantasies about the actual act of castration; there is nothing sexual or arousing about the thought of the castration process itself. For me, I get excited about what comes next - living in a castrated state.  Not in a gender transformation sense, but more like a pre-pubescent boy, an age of innocence:  no libido, no urges.

While I was banded I found myself wondering whether Mistress Patty would make me keep the bands on long enough to destroy my testicles - she has told me it is always possible she could do that. I thought about how I would feel if she told me that was happening, and how I would react.  The first thing I realized is that I would accept her decision and let it happen.  I have committed myself to her for this journey and trust her to do what is right at the right time.  Because I have decided I don’t want them, and because Mistress Patty and I have formed a good relationship, I have already mentally given my testicles to her.  My balls are the property of Mistress Patty.  I’ll be honest though and say that I would have been disappointed if it had turned out that way, because I would very much like her to take them from me in person. 

When the bands came off (which is the most painful part!) my penis was shriveled and my testicles were tightly compacted. My right testicle felt small and hard. We will see in a few days whether there is any permanent damage. The main feeling though was euphoria. A sense of achievement that another step on the journey has been taken, and a sense of fulfillment knowing that this is the right journey for me.  And I am lucky to have the best guide possible to share the journey with!

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Sunday, October 31, 2021

Testosterone Results: sub jason

 

The current testosterone results are in for sub jason. As you can see below, the current result is still in the low range.


Surprisingly, the current testosterone result is lower than the previous over the last year. 

I will drawing blood and testing again in late December when I decide whether or not to allow him to keep My balls between his thighs for another year. 

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Sunday, October 24, 2021

Fetishist w returns...

As I stood back to admire My progress so far, I couldn't help but snap a picture. Fet w's scrotum in the process of being infused with 1000ml's of saline, his bladder being taken over by My catheter and his ass in the process of being opened up enough to take My fist as well as using a cock pump to produce an anal prolapse. Such a lovely sight. 


After I gave him back his ability to use his bladder by removing the catheter, I began finger fucking his urethra. By the time I was finished, his piss hole was fucked deep and gaping. <wicked grin> 

And yes, I have video to share which will be posted in a few hours. 

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Thursday, October 21, 2021

Morning Experiment with sub jason...

The morning started with collecting sub jason's blood to send off to the lab for his current testosterone level. We've been testing his testosterone every few months since December 2019 when I banded My balls between his thighs for an hour and injected Everclear about 30 minutes into each testicle while banded. Yes, the results are in but will be posted in the following update since this update is being posted later than expected. 


The experiment began with giving sub jason a little blue pill and a bottle of water. The theory was that even though the hour banding/Everclear injections decreased sub jason's testosterone to below normal which resulted in decreased libido as well as erectile problems, that erectile medication would be successful even with the decreased testosterone. My theory was correct but was limited. As you can see above, he was able to achieve an erection even with no stimulation. Of course that was limited to roughly an hour before the erections didn't last longer than a few minutes and wasn't full erections. 

If you've not been following sub jason's journey since December 2019 but would like to, just search My Medical blog for sub jason.

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Tuesday, October 12, 2021

An Afternoon with Fet w: 100 Needle Challenge.

This past week when Fetishist w visited, I decided it was time to amuse Myself by using him for the 100 Needle Challenge which I even took video of to share. Yes, it's a long video but so worth it. 

So who else has the "balls" to take the challenge? Those that do, just use the contact form here on LeatherRealm. 

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