Sunday, February 26, 2023

Current Measurements: sub jason

These are the past and current measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs.

Left Testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286 (1yr)

Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218

Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18

Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51 (2yr)

Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405

Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728

Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (3yr)

Feb 2023: 4.33cm x 3.36cm x 2.44cm -> 148.70*

Right testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916 (1yr)

Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431

Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43 (2yr)

Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567

Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281

Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691 (3yr)

Feb 2023: 4.29cm x 3.15cm x 2.34cm -> 132.456*

* sub jason reports both testicles are still more firm than normal since Judgement Day 2022.

Wednesday, February 22, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 6 Week Summary

sub jason 6 Week Summary

This is from 6 weeks after Judgment Day 2022.  What follows is a summary, in sub jason’s own words, of those events, and the after effects…so far.

Judgement Day 2022 began in the late afternoon of 12/31.  i spent the initial hours being locked in MsPatty’s cage.  In the early evening, after MsPatty decided it was time, i was let out, and received an enema.  i was then restrained on the bed, with my legs spread and ankles high, and the hood & blindfold took away my vision.  MsPatty began Her Judgment Day games with Her Tri-bander.  She applied a stacked series of 4 thick bands and left them on for 25 minutes.  She also used her acrylic press during the banding time.  The stacked bands eventually began to hurt similar to what i remember towards the end of the hour of the single golden band from ~3 years prior until She cut them off.  i know, after a short rest, MsPatty amused Herself in various other ways over the next several hours.  Much of what followed i am missing / short on details, because of Her Judgement at the end.  Because of the posted video, i know MsPatty used the pillory w/the leather slapper. She also did ball punching, and 'stretch & shout'.  i don't recall much detail from that period.

As it became late in the evening, MsPatty applied Her Burdizzo as Judgement to my right cord for ~10 minutes.  She had decided She was again going after the smaller/weaker testicle in my scrotum.  This ‘little boy’ of Hers has been Her ongoing focus since as far back as the second and third visits back in 2016, and also on December 2019, when it received a greater amount of MsPatty’s Everclear injection.  After the clamping ended, i spent the next hour or so shaking, and being held by Her.  my mind was in disbelief of what Her and Her Burdizzo had done, but my body knew something had happened.  MsPatty eventually directed me back into the cage, with a Texas catheter and bag, to try to sleep until morning.  The symptoms from Her Judgement Day 2022 began to show up during the overnight in the cage.

Between the multiple stacked bands and the clamping, both of ‘Her boys’ began to swell up, and became very firm.  The right cord became quite swollen and remained so for over 2 weeks.  The smaller right testicle swelled up even larger than the left for at least the next 3+ weeks.  It has since returned to be slightly smaller, as it was before.  At 6 weeks, both testicles have slowly returned to an approximate size of their Fall 2022 dimensions.  Both are still more firm than they used to be.  The right has varying amounts of tenderness at times, although more diminished in the past week or so.  The right cord has had an ache since Judgement Day, although slowly diminishing over the period.  It is a general ache which is noticeable during certain movements.

MsPatty has required me to report and collect my releases, and provide video or pictures of the output result, to gauge the effects of Her Judgement Day 2022.  i have reported that the urge to achieve a release, since December, is less frequent.  my average before Judgment Day was ~5 days between releases.  It has since become ~7 days between releases.  my fluid output for each release has also fallen.  Compared to the pass three years, i would now classify it as very poor.  Although the output seems thicker, i no can longer produce enough liquid content to truly ‘shoot’ anything.  Instead, it amounts to little more than a blob, or a few dribbles, even with the further extended recharge period.  It has become harder to get and stay erect with physical stimulation.  i am sometimes not fully hard when i achieve release.  i feel a twinge in the right cord as the muscle contracts while approaching the release trigger point.

It seems that MsPatty has further affected the functionality of Her boys between my thighs.  my already low libido has certainly taken another hit.  i felt a few hot flashes driving home, and over several days which followed, although none recently.  mr penis remains more retracted most of the time.  After the events of December 2019, i had expected, then had declining hope for, a reasonable recovery, most of which has never happened.  The very slow improvement progress i had seen through last summer has easily been dealt another setback.  MsPatty has not been encouraging any hope of recovery to my pre-Judgement Day 2022 level like she been had back in early 2020.  i am now thinking that additional permanent damage has transpired, and MsPatty's comments are in general agreement, but She is patient to let time pass and see the long-term results.  Of course, MsPatty also remains amused at my decline in interest/frequency to edge, to achieve a release, and the further decline in my reproductive fluid output.

Soon sub jason will be bringing My balls between his thighs back to Me. At that time, I will be sending his blood sample off to the lab to test his current testosterone level. When those results are in, then we will know what impact that Judgment Day 2022 had. 

Sunday, February 12, 2023

After Effects: sub jason 3 years & 2-month

In sub jason's own words:

After Effects: sub jason, @ 3 years and 2 months update...

From nearly three years ago (May 2020), sub jason filled out this form created from points of castration experiences made by others after his experience on Judgement Day 2019, and each year since.  his answers then, up through now, appear side-by-side:

For the first month or so:

    You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.

 5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.

 1yr5mos: i feel sexually inadequate between my thighs.  

 2yrs5mos: i long for that strong feeling between my thighs to return, but it's merely a echo of a memory.

 Now: It has been so long since i had a libido, i can barely remember what it feels like to have one.

    You will gradually lose your sex drive.

 5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later.  While some has returned, it's still currently low.

 1yr5mos: The interest has returned.  The ability to perform has not.

 2yrs5mos: The interest is in my mind but being unable to physically respond is a constant frustration.

 Now: If one can call what i occasionally feel a sex drive, it may just be distant memories echoing.

    Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.

 5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.

 1yr5mos: After any release, the desire/interest to do so disappears for at least 2-3 days.

 2yrs5mos: While a release after much of a week of abstaining generates some reasonable fluid output (one to two mostly liquid pulses), it is very short in euphoric reward.  Another release sooner is dribbling and unrewarding.

 Now: Masturbation barely produces a release of more than a small blob and some drizzle after Judgement Day 2022, even after a week recharge.  Soon after a release, i have the urge to masturbate again, but i know i won't have anything left to emit.  After several hours pass the urge goes away for a around a ~week.

Past a few weeks to a month:

You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.

 5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.

 1yr5mos: i still feel the occasional random hot flash, and with hotter evenings or more physical activity being the potential trigger.

 2yrs5mos: They are not as frequent as a year ago, but still random, yet tied to physical activity when they do occur.

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, i felt more than several hot flashes over the following week, and then they subsided again.

    Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.

 5Mos: It lost ~20% of it's former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.

 1yr5mos: i have not regained any additional capacity, and achieving that firmness remains an effort.  Where i used to feel it when erections were happening, i now only seem to notice when a semi-erection is retracting.

 2yrs5mos: Only a very minor change noticed since last year.  On some mornings, the hint of a little more thickness sometimes appears, but it is barely noticeable.

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, it seems retracted slightly more often than it was prior.

    Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.

 5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.

 1yr5mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was a year ago and affects my ability to become and stay aroused.

 2yrs5mos: i remain about the same as a year ago, with the ongoing erectile dysfunction / lack of sensitivity / inability to remain erect.

 Now: About the same as last report.

    As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.

 5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.

 1yr5mos: Some additional feeling has returned, along with interest, but it has not translated into much additional functionality.

 2yrs5mos: The drive, or strength, that once emanated from my groin remains absent, with no notable improvement in the past year.

 Now: There has not been any further atrophy since Judgement Day 2022, but my groin has no notable feeling or drive to initiate sex.

    Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.

 5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.

 1yr5mos: Although volume measurements indicate to a return to low-normal human size, visually they are only about 2/3 their former size.

 2yrs5mos: Measurements have stopped as their relative size remains about constant to what was about a year ago.  

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, they again were swollen, with the smaller right exceeding the size of the left for about 3 weeks.  They remain more firm than normal, although the size/ratio between them is back to about what it was 2 months ago.

    Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.

 5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.

 1yr5mos: i remain unable to gain and maintain any erection without physical stimulation, and it's quality remains reduced.

 2yrs5mos: Other than the minor thickening noted on some mornings, nothing else has improved with my erection without the use of an enhancement pill

 Now: After the last Judgement Day 2022, it has become harder to generate an erection from physical stimulation, although still possible.

    M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

    M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

    You may experience more emotional episodes.

All three - Not an issue before at any point.

Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.

    You will likely gain abdominal fat.

 No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so a year later due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical of activity.  i remain heavier and find it difficult much of the time to motivate to get the extra exercise needed to take it off.

    You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.

 5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1–2-month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.

 1yr5mos: The interest has returned, but my perceived inability to perform deters me from pursuing.

 2yrs5mos: What was once a natural activity to engage and potentially explore is no longer natural in execution, with my sexual failure (if events were to get that far) all but certain.

 Now: i know i can't physically engage, so i don't bother to pursue.

    Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.

Now: Did not occur, although slowing of baldness process may have happened.

    You may lose upper body muscle and strength.

    Mustache and beard growth reduces dramatically.

    You will feel as if you are asexual.

    Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.

Now: Neither occurred.


i filled out MsPatty's First Contact questionnaire over 7 years ago. i listed an interest in castration fantasy, which MsPatty was quite pleased to learn. 

Over the course of the next 4 years, that fantasy was explored in different ways.  She attempted several times to cause deeper effects over many visits.  

On December 26, 2019, i experienced the loss of all testosterone production as a result of the hour banding, producing the effects of castration, as She planned.  i had hinted during the Fall lead up conversations that maybe the Everclear from two years prior might play a part, and MsPatty carpe diem.  The effects of the added Everclear, used together with the hour banding, have proven to be a devastating permanent effect. 

MsPatty remains thrilled that i continue to struggle with low testosterone, and the frustration of sexual inadequacy.  MsPatty wanted a long-term reminder and succeeded well beyond Her expectations.  Although there had been small gains in most every quarterly testosterone tests through 2022, additional damage from Judgement Day 2022 appears to have negated much of that progress.

MsPatty points out that i can, with focused effort or a pill, get hard and be driven to release some small amount of semen.  She explains further that this technically means i am not castrated.  i know my reproductive system has been highly compromised by MsPatty's modifications.  The net effect in my daily experience is that i continue to suffer most of the effects of castration.

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Sunday, February 5, 2023

Current T- Test Results: sub jason.

Below are the latest two Testosterone Test results for sub jason. 

The next test will be taken during sub jason's next visit which will hopefully be by April.  

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