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Sunday, January 16, 2022

An Afternoon with Sissy lexa...

Soon after sissy lexa walked in My door wearing a classic red dress and we had a short chat, I decided that I wanted to see her all wrapped up and preserved in clear plastic. Helpless and unable to move, I decided to encase her head in one of My sensory hoods that would restrict her breathing. Of course, with it, I also had more control over her breathing by simply applying one little finger over the mouth hole. <wicked giggle>

Under the clear plastic, her little nipples poked from beneath it like little headlights. Those nipples definitely needed some bling.

Once I had inserted the final needle, I decided that I must have the Noogleberry Contoured Breast System. I want the Large or Extra Extra Large set of breast cups. With them, I will be able to create a larger set of saline infused breasts. Gifting Me the set that I want will give you bonus points.

Now you know that I couldn't pass up sliding a 22g, 4-inch needle thru the cock head while she was so helpless. Oh yeah, My juices were flowing as it slide into her flesh and out the other side. All the while, I was electrifying that shaft and those bits between her thighs.

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Sunday, January 9, 2022

After Effects: sub jason; 2 years later...

In sub jason's own words...

Judgement Day - 2 Years Later

MsPatty's judgement day visit began like it has each of the last two years. After a mid-late afternoon arrival, and a few preparations, i am shackled to Her gallows for several hours. i am left alone to rest and think about the evening ahead. It will be a long night.

Over the past two years, i have noticed It is easy to detach and write clinical words, but eventually the reality of these words sets in. i was initially hopeful of an eventual (if extended) recovery, then began accepting some lost capacity, but neither really happened. An hour's effort on MsPatty's part, back on December 26, 2019, resulted in my current sexually dysfunctional state. i have been increasingly aware the past few months of how much permanent damage has transpired, and that what i am no longer able to participate in. It is also obvious that not much more effort by MsPatty would be needed to take away my remaining sexual function.

MsPatty has been very vague these past few months about what may happen tonight - other than posting the options from past examples. i will unknowingly experience each of Her examples this evening as the videos shows...

First - The Burdizzo - it is easily the most painful. She has had me experience it more than once before. There are three points of pain, not just one or two. One is the hard pressure on the cords, but it is felt deep in the abdomen. The other is the skin pinching - of both sides (top and bottom) - of the scrotum skin. There is no escaping this sharp pain while restrained. MsPatty teases me with the firm pressure of Her tool on each side but doesn't fully clamp. i am shaking by the end from just Her half-effort. i think there was enough pressure applied long enough to affect at least one of the cords for the short term.

Second - The Tri-Bander - Her band easily goes on extra high and begins its suffocating grip. For me, it is probably the easiest fantasy castration method to succumb to, and MsPatty knows it. What becomes obvious after 10-15 minutes, though, is that the 3+ month chastity - leading up to the events two years ago - had me on an edge which deferred the growing pain. This time, after the earlier Burdizzo activity, with only 5-weeks lead up chastity (and much lower hormone levels now), i feel the deep pinching more quickly. Deciding against banding at just past 20 minutes, MsPatty cuts the band off (painfully). i am now pretty sure that more damage has been done on top of the previous. i have no idea how i lasted a full hour back two years ago, or even the ~30 minutes on each of the prior first or second times banded.

Finally, MsPatty pulls out Her medical trays while i am still trying to process the effects of the previous two activities. She teases the video viewers (and me) with delivering Everclear injections to further damage Her testicles between my thighs, followed by what felt like a surgical incision attempt to (logically next) extract and sever Her testicles from the cords. Backing off from each, She decides instead on the game of letting me struggle to achieve erections and pursue my last? opportunities for penetrative sex. Of course, this is now further controlled by Her; with only two erection-enabling pills offered to me. This also assumes i can find a willing partner/opportunity in this continuing pandemic. It is also yet to be determined if any of the activities earlier this evening have set back my otherwise slow recovery toward the bottom edge of normal testosterone production.

What occurs next, off camera, has me mostly numb, even more than a week later. i cannot be certain what transpires, as i cannot see, but MsPatty had allowed me to smell the Everclear contents in Her needle - with a short squirt near my nose. Soon after, Her left testicle is pierced by the needle, and the fluid contents quickly fills it up, with pressure and burning sensations. i know it is the more damaged organ from the injections two years ago. If it was the Everclear i smelled, organ function probably won't continue. i was not paying as close attention to Her activities after this. i think She may have injected some into Her right testicle, or may She just inserted the needle for effect, or maybe nothing happened to it. i was still trying to process the moment just prior.

Some time will pass, and i will eventually be permitted to achieve a release (hardness elusive w/o blue pill). What had been built up in the past ~5 weeks of chastity is then spent after great struggle, which further amuses MsPatty. i am thinking She is envisioning what a future? sexual partner might experience, if i get the chance.

For the last week after the visit, both testicles have been larger and swollen for several days but have somewhat lessened over this time. The left will still fluctuate in hardness and size. The urge to release again strikes at 3, 5, and 7 days. The output contents are primarily clearer liquid, containing less milky-white, although there is some, but each is only one small pulse followed by some dribble - not encouraging. One of the signs of sexual failure implied by a past questionnaire is the urge to release more often while one still can. Getting hard at all has also been more stressful each time, possibly a further symptom. i know it could be the earlier Burdizzo and band effects still in play, combined with my damaged state. It could also be what MsPatty introduced off-camera. MsPatty, of course, also gave me those two blue pills to 'try again' over the next few months, implying that i might be just fine after a week or two... or to just find out that even the pills won't work for me the next time...

It feels like MsPatty has inserted a dildo in my ear, it pokes out the other, and Her hips are stroking Her strap-on mind-fuck to its limit...or maybe now i am fighting to accept another new reality...i don't know. i am not sure what the next year, or even 3 months, holds. i just know that normal sex with a woman is no longer possible, and that MsPatty controls what little heterosexual experiences i might still be able to achieve.

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Monday, January 3, 2022

Judgement Day 2021: sub jason...

Yes indeed, Judgement Day 2021 for sub jason finally came on New Year's Eve. My decision wasn't swift, I considered all My options and made the choice that fulfilled My desires for the time being.

Curious what happened? Oh yes, I am in the mood to share so check out the 4 videos below on My video gallery.

Over the next few weeks, I will be posting more so keep an eye out.

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Sunday, December 26, 2021

After Effects: sub jason, 24-month update.

sub jason, 24-Month Update, in his own words.

MsPatty has reminded me that another year has passed, and my lease on Her testicles between my thighs is again up for renewal. As it was a year ago, public opinion is being sought out to influence Her decision and possibly define Her activities around that decision. My current state of sexual function is another of the factors under consideration.

As it was well documented two years ago, MsPatty's devastated the internal function in each of Her testicles with a band and Everclear injections. Volume measurements calculate to them being physically below average. i have had low testosterone levels since i left her space the next morning, with the more recent quarterly Full-T tests confirming the effects.

A typical healthy male has the capacity to know average testosterone levels (~650ng/nl, within the normal range of 259-850) on only one good testicle. In this case, both the regular and excess production capacity of both organs was taken away, and observable physical atrophy occurred. Their reduced size hints at the extent of the damage, and it appears permanent. At the slow rate i am still improving, my testosterone levels might reach the low/normal line (@ 40% of average) in another year. That line is not a comfort to me. It has been estimated my libido had been slightly above average before December 2019.

In the past several months, i have noticed that the low testosterone has probably caused many of my memories of past sexual activity to fade. Only the highest intensity events are possible to recall, and the older memories don't register like they used to. It is difficult to 'feel' the memory when one's loins are no longer flooded with the hormones which made them possible.

i have asked MsPatty, and She does not consider my current state to be castrated. She says they still somewhat work. At the same time, my testosterone levels are insufficient to produce and maintain a natural erection. This erectile dysfunction means i cannot engage in penetrative sexual intercourse. my recovery capacity for the next useful sexual emission remains several days. The quality and quantity of my sexual fluid releases remains greatly diminished. MsPatty's goal on 12/26/2019 was to leave a lingering reminder. She has said Her expectations from those events have been greatly exceeded, and it does not bother her that i struggle sexually. It actually thrills her that i continue to experience the symptoms and frustration of what She took away.

What MsPatty has effectively taken away is my ability to enjoy normal sexual relations with a woman - for the rest of my life. MsPatty knows that having low testosterone (vs none) leaves open the possibility of additional improvement, albeit remote, at this point. She also knows it reminds me every day that, for the first half of my adult life, Her testicles had made more than enough testosterone for me to pursue my primal urges. As for the second half of my life, She has caused there to be only enough to remember what used to be.

The chance is slim, but i still hope for some more improvement, and i need Her testicles to do that. If it means suffering for her, i desire to do so.

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For Christmas this year, I gave him a little blue gift and permission to use My balls between his thighs once before he faces judgement day if he could locate a willing female to penetrate. As of today, he has yet to use My gift.

In less than 5 days, sub jason will face judgement day which is New Year's Eve. Will he walk out My door with permission to continue to use My balls between his thighs one more year or will I be taking them back which will render them useless? <wicked grin>

Only one way to find out.

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Sunday, December 19, 2021

After Effects: sub jason, questionnaire after ~2 years

From 19 months ago (5/2020), sub jason filled out this form with some points of castration experiences made by others. his answers then, and now at 24 months since 12/26/2019, appear side-by-side:

For the first month or so:

You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.

5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.

24Mos: i continue to feel sexually inadequate between my thighs.

You will gradually lose your sex drive.

5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later. While some has returned, it's still currently low.

24Mos: The interest in a partner has settled. my basic desire is for an orgasm once or twice a week by masturbation, which is all i am able to achieve.

Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.

5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.

24Mos: i edge constantly, but rarely get hard. i am biologically unable to produce enough fluid for an enjoyable release more than 1-2 times a week.

Past a few weeks to a month:

You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.

5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.

24Mos: i am more sensitive to hard work and more excessive temps. The struggle to regulate my body temperature/comfort zone is more noticeable.

Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.

5Mos: It lost ~20% of its former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.

24Mos: i have not regained any additional length. Achieving sufficient firmness still takes effort. Except for the brief period before a release, i am a stubby but semi-soft/thicker 3+".

Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.

5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.

24Mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was over a year ago. It continues to affect my ability to become and stay hard and aroused.

As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.

5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.

24Mos: Much of my past evaluation was masked by the optimism that my libido was still returning. my libido is very weak. my loins feel neutral most of the time.

Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.

5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.

24Mos: The volume calculations at 24 months, and visual evaluation, indicate a testicle volume which has settled just below human male average.

Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.

5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.

24Mos: Erections remain an effort to achieve and require multiple sources of stimulation to gain and maintain. i am otherwise limp all of the time.

M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

You may experience more emotional episodes.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.

You may lose upper body muscle and strength.

Some may have been lost at this point, with a note toward both age and COVID lifestyle contributing to reduced physical activity.

You will likely gain abdominal fat.

No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so toward 24 months due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical activity.

You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.

5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1–2-month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.

24Mos: The interest returned for a while, but the reality of my inability to perform naturally has been proven. My desire to pursue someone, then reveal i am impotent, seems like a waste of effort.

Mustache and bear growth reduces dramatically.

Not seen yet.

Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.

Did not occur, although some slowing of baldness may have happened.

You will feel as if you are asexual.

Did not occur.

Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.

Did not occur.

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Sunday, December 12, 2021

Current Measurements: sub jason.

Current measurements of My testicles between sub jason's thighs. As you can see from the first measurements in March 2020, they have increased in size since the original measurements 3 months after being banded and injected with Everclear. This increase happened during the healed process.

- Left testicle:

March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635
July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407
Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520
Sept 2020: 3.9cm x 3.2cm x 1.9cm -> 99.324
Oct 2020: 3.85cm x 3.2cm x 1.85cm -> 95.470
Nov 2020: 3.95cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 101.011
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18

*Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51

- Right testicle:

March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155
May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166
Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155
Sept 2020: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 126.803
Oct 2020: 4.2cm x 3.5cm x 2.35cm -> 144.701
Nov 2020: 4.35cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 140.304
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

*Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43

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