Showing posts with label #tribander. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #tribander. Show all posts
Sunday, October 13, 2024
Sunday, June 16, 2024
Current Measurements: sub jason
sub jason's June 2024 Measurements, Highs, & Lows
Left Testicle:
May 2020: 3.60cm x 2.50cm x 1.60cm -> 60.31 (initial low)
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.60cm x 2.50cm -> 167.76 (1st peak)
Sep 2022: 4.30cm x 3.40cm x 2.20cm -> 134.73 (2nd low)
Feb 2023: 4.33cm x 3.36cm x 2.44cm -> 148.70 (2nd peak)
Feb 2024: 4.30cm x 3.21cm x 2.38cm -> 137.61 (JD 2023+1.5mo)
Jun 2024: 3.93cm x 3.10cm x 1.97cm -> 100.53 (current low)
Right Testicle:
Mar 2020: 3.50cm x 2.20cm x 1.40cm -> 45.16 (initial low)
Mar 2021: 4.50cm x 3.50cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25 (1st peak)
Aug 2022: 4.20cm x 3.30cm x 1.85cm -> 107.40 (2nd low)
Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.70 (2nd peak)
Feb 2023: 4.29cm x 3.15cm x 2.34cm -> 132.46 (JD 2023+1.5mo)
Jun 2024: 3.90cm x 2.90cm x 1.80cm -> 85.28 (current low)
The videos from our time together can be found on the medical and what's new video galleries.
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After Effects: sub jason update, 8 weeks
sub jason update - ~8 weeks
In sub jason's own words...
It's been almost 2 months since MsPatty last had Her way with Her boys between my thighs. MsPatty has requested that i compile another update.
For those that were surprised at some of MsPatty's activities, the feeling was fairly mutual. An enema, catheter, and some form of sensory deprivation are all fairly common. Her frequent use of the wide silicone bands makes them very likely. The acrylic press, electro, and the card game was somewhat expected based on e-mail exchanges we recently had. However, Her choice to then inject 3cc of Everclear into Her boys, the heavy needle stirring inside, and being banded during this with the heavy castration band for ~25 minutes were not expected. When i asked Her where the impulse came from, Her response was that She decided to 'take Her boys down a notch'. i am not sure how many notches they have left to go down. Although some more time needs to pass to evaluate the effects, i have little doubt that MsPatty has likely caused further long-term impact to Her boys between my thighs.
In the hours, days and several weeks which followed, both testicles were swollen and very sensitive. As the sensitivity to pressure gradually declined a ~month later, each began to atrophy and harden. The left has lost the most overall volume but remains the slightly larger of the two. Both are currently very firm, with surface contouring which can be described as pebble-like. They have roundness, but also indentations, or small bumps across some parts of their surface. They are similar to the effects described in my private updates to MsPatty back in early 2020. The right cord continues to have an occasional ache from MsPatty's Dec. 2022 burdizzo clamping.
Since the events in April, i have noticed hot flashes returning more frequently, almost daily, and sometimes twice a day. The only difference is there have not been any obvious trigger activities i can determine as before. The urge to release has declined to about once a week. At the same time, i have trouble remembering the last time unless i write them down immediately. my releases have less overall thickness, a slightly lower average liquid amounts, and i can feel that i have very little to ejaculate. my current libido would seem to be lower than it was over the recent winter and the past few years. If the 2019-2020 experience is any indicator, it could be another 3-5 weeks before i may feel a slight return of what little libido i may retain.
i recently realized that my memories of sexual activities with past partners have become quite difficult to recall. i have to review the list MsPatty extracted from me several years ago to revisit some mere highlights. Overall, daily and weekly thoughts about sex have declined even further than what was after MsPatty's activities in December 2019, although no 'void' in the pelvic area appeared this time. i notice now that my general interest in meeting new women is quickly overridden by a combination of fear and embarrassment... for what will be their eventual discovery? but the sexual failure MsPatty has engineered between my thighs. At some point in the past year, during a visit's conversation, i made a statement to MsPatty that, "She has effectively ruined me for other women." With a sudden bright smile on Her face, She replied, "Mmmm... Yes. I certainly have, haven't I?", and proceeded to chuckle in Her most evil way for a while...
MsPatty desires another T-test in a few weeks, just prior to me bringing Her boys to visit Her again for their birthday.
Monday, April 22, 2024
An Evening to Remember...sub jason
When sub jason walked in My door, I knew what I was going to do with My balls between his thighs right away. Soon after chatting for a bit, I instructed him to strip and get onto the bed, I proceeded to restrain his limbs to the four corners of the bed. To allow him to focus, I placed the mask that he made Me over his face then left him alone for an hour to prepare for later.
After an hour, I returned with a filled enema bag and removed the restraints then moved him to the end of the bed to begin administering the warm soapy water. When the release water ran clear, it was time to begin.
Back into position at the end of the bed, feet up in the leather stirrups and his wrists restrained to the end corners of the bed. The spandex hood placed over his head to force him to focus on what he was about to experience.
To begin, I placed My balls between his thighs as well as cock into the acrylic ball press then applied electro pads beneath each nut. For fun, I told him we were to play a game. **Full video of game with instructions will be posted later this evening.
Now that My balls between sub jason's thighs had been squeezed, I removed the acrylic press and pulled out My new, larger Tri bander. First, I used a non-castration red band and placed it about an inch above the testicles then another red band below the first. The third band, the black castration band was then placed between the two red bands.
After 8 minutes had passed, I began injecting into both testicles, multiple injection sites a total of 3ml's of 190 proof Everclear. With each injection, I stirred the needle, all the while teasing sub jason.
When 30 minutes had passed, I began slowly removing the bands, starting with the two red bands then the black castration band. Total time banded was 32 minutes.
Soon sub jason would be released with instructions to keep Me updated daily. The above picture was sent 3 days after our time together. They are in the process of healing. A T test will be taken in roughly 3 months.
The videos from our time together can be found on the medical and what's new video galleries.
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Sunday, March 26, 2023
The Return of sissy tammy...
After several months, sissy tammy returned and certainly made My Saturday afternoon. To begin, I restrained her to the end of the bed.
After restraining her wrists to the sides of the bed and slid her legs into the leather stirrups, I decided to give her some bouncy breasts by administering saline infusions. Once the saline began to flow, I went between her legs and used My Tri-bander. One ring, two ring and finally a third was placed just above the testicles.
With a smile, I just had to giggle to Myself and reached for the prefilled syringes with 190 proof Everclear and began injecting the EC through multiple injection sites on each testicle till I reached 2ml into each. As the clock hit 65 minutes, I used a scalpel to cut the bands off.
With two juicy breasts quickly forming from the saline infusion upon her chest, I decided to bring out My surgical stapler and give her a twat that I could finger as well as fuck. As you see above, such a sweet sissy pussy to slide My cock into.
After fucking that pussy between her thighs, it was time to see the squeezable breasts that I created.
And yes, I have a 12-minute video to share of our time together below on the video gallery.
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Sunday, February 26, 2023
Current Measurements: sub jason
These are the past and current measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs.
Left Testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286 (1yr)
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51 (2yr)
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (3yr)
Feb 2023: 4.33cm x 3.36cm x 2.44cm -> 148.70*
Right testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916 (1yr)
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43 (2yr)
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691 (3yr)
Feb 2023: 4.29cm x 3.15cm x 2.34cm -> 132.456*
* sub jason reports both testicles are still more firm than normal since Judgement Day 2022.
Sunday, January 29, 2023
Rewind Time...sub jason
Before the Burdizzo, there was the Tri-bander. As sub jason lay completely helpless with legs spread wide, I began to apply bands one after another till, I reached 4.
With the 4 bands overlapping one another, the pressure was on for sub jason till I decided to use My scalpel. This time, I removed the bands after 25 minutes. Such a lovely shade of grape purple. <wicked grin>
During those 25 minutes as My balls between his thighs slowly turned cold, I decided that I wanted to see them under clear acrylic. Pressed meat anyone? LOL
And yes, there is video so go take a look below on My video gallery.
Latest Update:
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Friday, January 6, 2023
The MsPatty Effect
As you can see, I've had an effect on sub jason's releases as well as his testosterone for a few years now.
Thanks goes to sub jason for the graph.
I will be posting the results from the testosterone test that was taken on December 26th, just prior to Judgment Day 2022 on the weekly update.
Monday, January 2, 2023
Facing Judgment Day...sub jason.
On Saturday, December 31st, 2022, sub jason faced My judgment, his judgment day. In the afternoon, he arrived as instructed and soon after was locked into My cage for a couple of hours till I was ready to begin. The hours in the cage also allowed his anticipation to grow.
After allowing him to stew in My cage, I released him and ordered him onto the bed to administer enemas in preparation for the night which took a while. Once he was clean as a whistle, I introduced him to a couple of "games." The Stretch & Shout game is a person favorite involving My balls between his thighs tied to one end of the bed and My cleavage at the other end. The goal was for him to reach My large breast without using his hands. The only way to achieve this is to stretch My balls. <wicked grin>
After enjoying him for a while, it was time for him to face the verdict. The verdict, I used the burdizzo to clamp the smaller/weaker testicle. In the coming weeks, we will know whether or not the clamping was a success. The remaining testicle, I have allowed him to use for another year.
Go to My video gallery below to watch as I pass judgment.
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Saturday, December 17, 2022
Latest Libido Questionnaire: sub jason.
This is the latest libido questionnaire that sub jason has filled out prior to Judgment Day 2022. This should give you an idea of his current situation, libido wise.
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You are receiving this questionnaire to help Me understand your current libido/sex drive, and/or possibly any change in it you may have experienced in our journey together. I may have attached this to a correspondence with additional guidance or context, so I need you to follow that. If not, your answers should generally apply to the past few weeks unless otherwise noted.
If some question numbers are missing, they may have not applied to our shared interests/experiences/journey, and I have omitted them. Some questions may be based upon physiological responses (or lack thereof) which you are not experiencing and may not have an answer at this time.
The familiar name I know you by (sub/sissy/bttm)_sub jason.
Make note of the day/month/year when you are filling this out here: 12/12/2022.
About how long ago was the experience which brought about observable changes in your libido?
1082_ days/weeks/months/years (Hint: Google can help, if you ask Her correctly)
Now save the questionnaire before you continue, replacing 'male' with your familiar name, and replace mm and yy with the current month and year.
1. Prior to this experience, would you have considered your male libido to have been 1) below normal, 2) average, 3) strong? (3)
2. Please respond to sub-questions a-f from the actual experience. If this is a repeat questionnaire, copy in your past answers:
a) Did My testicle(s) swell as part of the experience? Yes
b) Did either/both of My testicles remain elevated/pulled up close to your torso for an extended period of time afterward? Yes
c) If either 1 or 2, for approximately how long before one/both returned to normal size/extension? (explain) ~2 weeks
d) Did you notice if your cord(s) had any bumps, sensitivity, or thickness changes? Yes, both, thicker and more sensitive
e) If 1, 2, or 4 was answered Yes, have either/any caused you any abdominal discomfort? Not since the experience.
f) Within the context of the above questions, do you have anything else to include? The immediate symptoms from the experience have given way to long-term permanent changes. i am sexually dysfunctional.
3. Compared to before the experience, would you describe your current sex drive to be 1) unchanged, 2) reduced, 3) missing, 4) improved, 5) returned to normal. Between 2 and 3.
3a. If this is for a follow-up questionnaire, how has it changed since the last time you answered? i remain sexually unable to perform and am limited to masturbation.
4. Since the experience or last questionnaire (whichever is most recent), has your groin area experienced more sweat/humidity/dampness than usual? No changes at ~3 years.
5. Has your ability to achieve spontaneous (non-physically stimulated) erections changed? Please describe anything you may have noticed. - i remain unable to gain an erection without physical stimulation, or pharmaceutical assistance.
6. Since the experience or last questionnaire, has your flaccid/at-rest member (inside underwear & jeans/shorts) changed in sensitivity? i.e. - has it become more sensitive? or less, possibly like normal skin elsewhere on your body? or some combination of both? - No changes since last questionnaire. my penis sensitivity remains low.
7. Aside from any lingering physical symptoms from the experience, do you mentally 'feel' any different between your thighs than before? As in neutral, something missing, void? If so, explain: - i am still very close to neutral most of the time. Sometimes in the morning, when testosterone is at its highest, i may notice something more, and when i am on extended chastity.
8. Has your at-rest member become noticeably smaller/retracted/atrophied? and/or gained in size? If changes have occurred, explain the most recent you have noticed.
- i remain the same as i have for much of the past three years - my package is smaller, and best attributed to the size of a male entering puberty.
9. Can you currently achieve a partial (thickening) or fairly/full erection at this time with physical stimulation? - Yes, barely.
9a. If you can, what, if any, difference would you say there is in length and/or girth? - i remain unchanged in the past two years. i can reach about 5" with varying levels of hardness, but generally less than it used to be.
9b. Assuming there is a difference from before the experience, how does this change make you feel? - Unable to engage in natural sexual activity with other women, and i am thereby lacking in interest to engage.
10. Since the experience, have you felt the need to masturbate more/unchanged/less often? (an explanation is encouraged if any change is noticed) - i continue to desire to edge and maturate, but biologically i am unable to produce enough fluids for more than 2 releases a week, with a few days between.
11. Within the past ~2-4 weeks, have you been able to successfully achieve a release of sexual fluids? No - i am currently in chastity for what is my 3rd week of ~5 weeks.
11a. If Yes, and if several times, about how often have you released in that period? N/A
11b. IF Yes, about how long is it until the urge to do so again returned? N/A
12. Assuming you have successfully released, and been able to observe it, have you noticed any changes in your ejaculate (quantity/contents/viscosity/mixture) since prior to the experience? It remains a poor subset of my former healthy ejaculate. i produce less ejaculate per release, over a much-extended recovery period.
13. Have you felt any hot flashes? or woken up with night sweats? or found it difficult at times to get warm/stay cool? Feeling warm after going to bed remains an initial challenge on many nights even though there are no changes in temperature in my dwelling.
13a. If yes, which of these? and about how frequently have they occurred? (in the past ~2-4 weeks) - Once or twice in a given week.
14. Have you needed to make any changes to your toilet routine when urinating or defecating? None beyond taking care when sitting the direction of my urine stream
14a. If Yes, what do you find yourself doing differently?
15. Has your scrotum's size and/or it's average elasticity changed (less/more) since the experience? (an explanation is encouraged if any change has been noticed) - it has lost some of its stretch, and has visibly become smaller, having smaller internal components.
16. Has the contour/texture/feel of either of My testicles (inside the scrotum) changed in any way? Aside from their size, please describe any changes noticed.
- None since last questionnaire, although visual comparisons to 2015 show they are notably smaller and no longer robust in their presence within my scrotum.
17. After any initial testicle swelling subsided from the experience, have you noticed any atrophy and/or regained mass in them since, and in any way?
17a. If yes, what is your current size estimate (%) vs before their physical size before this experience?
- None since the last questionnaire or the experience subsided beyond noted volume observations.
18. Have you (or someone else) noticed any change in your emotional temperament? (the urge to cry, get irate, experience mood swings, etc).
18a. If so, which? and under what circumstances was it noticed?
- None that i know of.
19. Would you say that you have lost some/any strength or upper body muscle?
- Its likely possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors. i have less energy overall, and my strength and stamina are down.
20. Has your sexual pursuit of/interest in/interactions with the female sex changed in any way as a result of this experience? Yes
20a. If Yes, explain what you feel is different: i no longer have a desire to pursue female partnership with a sexual component. i am unable to contribute that component to a relationship if they desire adding it.
21. Have you gained any weight? or possibly gone up/down any clothing sizes (i.e. - around your waistline)? If so, about how much?
- It seems possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors. i am probably 60 lbs heavier since the ~2018-2019-time frame.
22. Have you noticed any changes in facial hair growth or it's texture?
- None
23. Have you felt any difference in your male sexual identity?
23a. If Yes, please explain how it may have changed since the experience, and/or since the previous questionnaire.
- None since last questionnaire, but i remain sexually impotent.
24. Has any body hair (arms, legs, chest, back, etc) changed in any way?
- No changes
25. Has there been any sensitivity changes in your nipples, or breast texture?
- None noticed.
26. Assuming you are able to achieve sexual release (via masturbation, coitus, etc), please answer this section:
a. has the lead-up process/effort of reaching the point of climax changed for you in any way? - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.
a1. If Yes, how would you describe those changes? - A significant effort remains to get erect, and the approach to the plateau is difficult to enjoy/manage.
b. has the euphoric reward (afterglow) period changed for you in any way? - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.
b1. If Yes, what seems different now? - It remains much less rewarding than it used to be before and disappears quickly.
27. On a scale of 1-10, with 1 representing highest effort/lowest reward (i.e. - not worth it/unable to achieve), and 10 representing the lowest effort/highest reward (i.e. possibly from sometime before this experience), how would you rate your current climax effort/reward experience? It remains in the 2-3 range.
28. Given an ideal situation to engage in sexual copulation right now, with an interested partner, how do you rate your chances of physically participating (as a male)? Use the scale of 1=failure to 5=high success: 2, and only because i have a blue pill. My only attempt in the past two years was a failure (without the pill).
29. Is there anything you might want to add as an additional comment or observation? Please use the end of this questionnaire for this:
- i know You do not consider me castrated, but i continue to suffer the effects of my castration fantasy, and probably will for the rest of my life.
Do not be surprised if I require you to fill out this questionnaire, or an updated version of it, again in the future.
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Current Measurements: sub jason.
These are the current, pre-judgment day measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs.
Left Testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (old peak)
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (new peak)
Right testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691
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Sunday, December 11, 2022
Before & After: sub jason.
Before & After in sub jason's own words...
You modified the natural biological functions between my thighs. Without a functional tool for having sex, i feel like a fish out of water. The details:
- Before: High libido
- After: Low/Lack of libido
- Before: Fully viable releases possible 2-3 times a day, with 3rd output sufficient if enough hydration; recovery possible by the next day.
- After: Semi-viable releases possible 1-2 times a week, content quality/quantity is low/questionable on the second if too soon, recovery several days.
- Before: strong erection, good quantity/quality and rewarding ejaculations, high confidence.
- After: dysfunctional erection, poor quality/quantity releases, performance anxiety, lack of confidence.
- Before: Spontaneous erections possible at any time.
- After: Spontaneous erections impossible. Both physical stimulation and mental interest, or pharmaceutical enhancement, needed.
- Before: 6"+ length, firm, able to penetrate a pussy.
- After: 5"+ length, semi-firm, unable to penetrate a pussy.
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Sunday, December 4, 2022
After Effects: sub jason 2 years, 11 months.
In sub jason's own words...
Sub Jason Update - 2 years, 11 months
MsPatty has noted to me that many still follow this journey i have been on with Her. To be fair, little has changed physically since She shared my last personal update in September. For those new to reading this journey, there is plenty of week by week and month by month detail in the posted summary details on MsPatty's Medical Blog. There are my first visits starting in December 2015, with events as far back as July 2019 being relevant to now. She has also been asked what were my interests? and what were, and now, are MsPatty's goals? All i can say about the future is that all of us are curious where this may end up, but none of it is written yet. This is because MsPatty is quite simply A Woman. There is no script involved. Even if there were one, She could easily change Her mind at any point, and i know at times She has.
The well summarized version of the past ~3 years is that MsPatty caused my fantasy castration experience to transpire on the evening of December 26, 2019 after a 3+ month stretch of chastity. She spread a thick castration band on Her tri-bander and closed it around the neck of my scrotum early that evening. She then forced excess fluids out of 'Her boys' past the band with an acrylic press. Around 30 minutes into the banding, She injected a total of 3cc Everclear, and removed the band after an hour had passed. From the moment the band closed, my testosterone began falling. As the hour progressed, both testicles shut down. The static Everclear we now know took an additional toll. The chastity high i walked in with was quickly forgotten, and my once-strong libido faded away during the overnight. The effects of male menopause (i.e. castration symptoms) took hold over the next few days. Both testicles quickly swelled to more than 2x, then atrophied to about 1/3 their original size a few weeks later. i noticed a minor hint of a libido appear after about three months, and some testicle volume returned over the year or so that followed but has not returned to what it was. Only a minor ~1-2% improvement in T-levels has been seen each year. It is obvious now that significant damage transpired, and i will probably never know a normal libido again.
At some point during this past year or so, i queried MsPatty about the results She had been aiming for. Her response was that She hoped for a temporary, yet possibly extended, period of no libido (i.e. a castration experience). This implied something longer than the ~2-3 months which an hour banding (solo) might typically have produced, with late spring 2020 or the summer more likely for my general recovery. She had also noticed my fairly high (unmeasured but perceived) testosterone level over many prior visits. She had hoped for a slight drop in that (i.e. some damage). As noted in the frequent testing since, i have yet to reach even the low edge of normal testosterone levels. Both of 'Her boys' are comparatively smaller now. i remain limp without external physical stimulation or pharmaceutical enhancement, and even those physical effects are off from what i once achieved. my libido is a mere shadow of what it once was, and at times barely perceivable. MsPatty knows She far exceeded Her expectations, and this thrills the part of Her which craves needing to control.
MsPatty has been asked a number of times if this was what i wanted. The question in effect being, did i, "no longer want be able to have normal heterosexual relations with women?" As far as something permanent was concerned, the answer to that is no. There was a fantasy involved, implying only a temporary experience. i had an expectation that at some point i would have recovered much of my libido as it was before. At the same time, i knew there were risks involved. Some of them have contributed to what has since transpired, and i have to accept them.
MsPatty reminds me often that, while i am not truly castrated, the resulting impotence/sexual dysfunction from low testosterone does not bother Her. She believes She has helped 'Her boys' to server a higher purpose (Her). This has now become part of my extended journey with MsPatty. She gets off on my ongoing struggles with a low to non-existent libido, and my inability to perform sexually. Since the pandemic has eased, i know i have missed several opportunities to have sex with interested ladies of my age - all because of what has transpired. From this, MsPatty knows She controls what remains of my sexual future and has effectively left Her permanent mark inside of me.
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September Measurements: sub jason.
These are the last measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs. As you can see, the variations are most likely natural fluctuations at this point. They will be measured again soon before Judgment Day 2022.
Left Testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (peak)
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Right testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
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Sunday, November 27, 2022
Judgment Day 2022 Countdown: sub jason...
On December 26th, 2019, I injected Everclear into each of My testicles between sub jason's thighs, 30 minutes into an hour-long banding. I chose to allow him to keep My balls for another year but with a reminder that has lasted since then.
Once again on December 31st, 2022, I will be making My choice whether to allow him to keep My balls for another year or to take them this time. On Twitter, I am posting surveys, videos and pictures from the last almost 3 years. Be a part of My decision this year, share them and possibly be a part of this life changing event.
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Saturday, November 27, 2021
Long Distance Banding Update: sub boy r
In sub boy r's own words:
Immediately after my second banding, my right testicle was smaller and harder than normal. I wondered if this indicated permanent damage, and I won’t lie - part of me wished it was. However, about 30 hours after the banding it had returned to a normal size and consistency.
What hasn’t changed though is the tightening of my scrotum - almost all the time it’s much more constricted than normal. Once or twice I’ve noticed it hanging low, but the norm seems to be a very tight package.
The one problem I’ve had since the second banding is the damage it caused to my scrotum. At the time I assumed the bleeding was due to nicks caused when I cut the band off. But I now realize what happened. The two bands were very close to each other, but caught enough skin between them to cause little blisters, which subsequently became sore wounds. I know now to make sure the second band either overlaps or is so close to the first that no skin damage has been done. Today is the first day (at +12 days) that I don’t have visible raw wounds.
I have maintained the penis banding. I actually do it every 2 or 3 days because I am so happy with the results. I haven’t had an erection (not even a morning erection) for weeks now, and I love it! My penis size has greatly reduced, in fact it seems to be shrinking to nothing - which is another thing I’m very happy about. I took the attached photo today - 12 days after my last banding.
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Monday, November 15, 2021
Long Distance Banding: sub boy r's 2nd
In sub boy r's own words:
This week I had my second banding session with Mistress Patty.
After the first session a few weeks ago I was sore and tight for about 5 days, but after that I seemed to physically return to how it was before. My libido was definitely down though, which was a good thing. However, I was still getting night-time and morning erections, which I had hoped would reduce. Mistress Patty therefore started me on a routine which involves placing wide elastic bands (firm but not tight) around my penis for at least half an hour every few days. This was uncomfortable to start with, but something I have got used to as part of my life. It has definitely helped - while I still get the occasional erection, they are nowhere near as firm as before.
I was even more excited about our second banding session than I was about the first, probably because I no longer had any anxiety about the unknown. Mistress Patty was once again a very calm, gentle but firm guide through the whole process, making it very easy to go along with. We once again started with one band and then added a second, but this time the second one went on much sooner so that I was banded with two bands for longer. She also had me place the three penis bands on as well. I won’t hide the fact that there is considerable pain, discomfort and nausea associated with banding. But ice packs help, and Mistress Patty is very good at explaining what is happening and keeping you focused on anything but the discomfort! It also helps knowing that this is all part of the journey which I have decided to take with Mistress Patty - my journey to castration. Just to be clear, I have no fantasies about the actual act of castration; there is nothing sexual or arousing about the thought of the castration process itself. For me, I get excited about what comes next - living in a castrated state. Not in a gender transformation sense, but more like a pre-pubescent boy, an age of innocence: no libido, no urges.
While I was banded I found myself wondering whether Mistress Patty would make me keep the bands on long enough to destroy my testicles - she has told me it is always possible she could do that. I thought about how I would feel if she told me that was happening, and how I would react. The first thing I realized is that I would accept her decision and let it happen. I have committed myself to her for this journey and trust her to do what is right at the right time. Because I have decided I don’t want them, and because Mistress Patty and I have formed a good relationship, I have already mentally given my testicles to her. My balls are the property of Mistress Patty. I’ll be honest though and say that I would have been disappointed if it had turned out that way, because I would very much like her to take them from me in person.
When the bands came off (which is the most painful part!) my penis was shriveled and my testicles were tightly compacted. My right testicle felt small and hard. We will see in a few days whether there is any permanent damage. The main feeling though was euphoria. A sense of achievement that another step on the journey has been taken, and a sense of fulfillment knowing that this is the right journey for me. And I am lucky to have the best guide possible to share the journey with!
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Thursday, October 21, 2021
Morning Experiment with sub jason...
The morning started with collecting sub jason's blood to send off to the lab for his current testosterone level. We've been testing his testosterone every few months since December 2019 when I banded My balls between his thighs for an hour and injected Everclear about 30 minutes into each testicle while banded. Yes, the results are in but will be posted in the following update since this update is being posted later than expected.
The experiment began with giving sub jason a little blue pill and a bottle of water. The theory was that even though the hour banding/Everclear injections decreased sub jason's testosterone to below normal which resulted in decreased libido as well as erectile problems, that erectile medication would be successful even with the decreased testosterone. My theory was correct but was limited. As you can see above, he was able to achieve an erection even with no stimulation. Of course that was limited to roughly an hour before the erections didn't last longer than a few minutes and wasn't full erections.
If you've not been following sub jason's journey since December 2019 but would like to, just search My Medical blog for sub jason.
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Sunday, September 19, 2021
Long Distance Banding: sub boy r...
A New Beginning: In sub boy r's own words...
The past 48 hours have been some of the most rewarding and fulfilling in my life. Because on Friday evening I was banded for the first time.
My first meeting with Mistress Patty was a few weeks ago. She patiently and thoroughly explored my dreams and desires. In short, I want to live life as a castrated male, with no more testosterone or libido. Mistress Patty encouraging me to say these things out loud, and being honest with her and with myself, was a major step forwards for me. She told me to buy a tri-bander, and we booked our meeting for Friday evening.
On Friday I was excited but also quite nervous. Mistress Patty soon put me at my ease and with great kindness, care and patience talked me through exactly what she wanted me to do. The first band was hard to get on. It was fiddly getting both testicles through the band, and when I started to loosen the tension to ease the band off the three prongs, it slipped off one of them before I was ready and the band smacked into my testicle with great force – which was highly painful! The second prong released easily, and the third which much more effort but suddenly I realized that the band was on! There was a wave of pressure which was more of an ache than a pain, which soon subsided. My heart raced for a while, but it was mainly out of excitement. For the first time in my life I had been banded and taken the first step towards the new me!
Mistress Patty was very encouraging during this time, asking lots of questions which I suspect was to distract me a bit from any pain and discomfort. I was just wondering how long I was to keep the band on (I had assumed the first time would only be a few minutes) when Mistress Patty told me to load another one on the tri-bander. I was momentarily stunned. Should I do it? Then I thought, of course I should. By now I had complete trust in Mistress Patty and I wanted to show her I was serious about this. So a second band went on next to the first. It actually went on much easier – it was slightly harder pulling the testicles through because they were quite a bit tighter due to the first band, but it seemed easier getting it off the prongs. Now this felt real. Now I knew that serious damage was starting to be done to the spermatic cords. And totally at peace with it and happy!
Fairly soon I started to feel nauseous, to the point of bile flooding into my mouth. Mistress Patty explained that this was because the cords were being damaged, and advised me to apply ice under the scrotum. This helped but soon I began to feel shaky and Mistress Patty let me cut the bands off. This itself is an intensely painful experience – when the rubber finally gives way after much careful cutting, they release with a snap that sends immense pain through your body and makes you cry out.
The bands had caused some irritation and minor bleeding, and left deep marks on the skin. The first thing I noticed was that my scrotum and testicles were completely numb. And I felt great – a wave of euphoria came over me and kept me on a crest of excitement for a couple of hours, at which point the adrenalin stopped and I fell fast asleep, sleeping better than I have for ages.
The next morning, I awoke with a semi-erection, but some exploratory fiddling showed me that there was no way anything was going to happen. And I didn’t want it to. My scrotum was still numb and the skin still sore, but I felt completely at peace. Mistress Patty has said that she will help me take care of such soft erections, and I really look forward to that. Throughout Saturday I was tired, but happy. Today some (but not all) of the feeling has returned, and I still feel great! One difference today is that my scrotum is much tighter than it normally is.
This was the first step on my castration journey, a journey that we have agreed will end in Mistress Patty’s hands with her burdizzo. Before then I hope to enjoy more banding experiences under Mistress Patty’s instruction. Hers is now the guiding hand and voice in this, the most important part of my life.
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