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Tuesday, December 3, 2024
Monday, December 25, 2023
After Effects: sub jason 4 year Summary
In sub jason's own words...
sub jason's 4yr Summary
MsPatty has again requested a summary update for the 4th anniversary of Her Judgement Day (JD).
On the evening of December 26, 2019, MsPatty had her way between my thighs during an hour-long banding. During the initial 30 minutes of being banded, she pressed everything flat with an acrylic vice. For the second 30 minutes, She introduced 3cc of Everclear split between both testicles, biased toward the right. Her primary goal was to temporarily induce the symptoms of castration. She knew the banding would likely cause an abrupt loss of testosterone production. This would in turn result in loss of libido, loss of erections, and essentially all reproductive output, for somewhere around 2-3 months. With the addition of the Everclear, She was secretly hoping for some additional libido dimming/damage to occur which would result in a longer heal time, and/or possibly a slight reduction in my already high testosterone level.
The results were, in Her opinion, much greater than She expected. Instead of something temporary, there has been a permanent and significant loss in sexual function, which has thrilled MsPatty to no end. my testosterone level crashed, as expected, and now only hovers around the clinically low-normal line. It was a loss of ~2/3 of the level i once knew. my libido is now barely noticeable. i am unable to get mentally triggered erections, and constant physical stimulation is required to maintain what am able to achieve, which has also lost length and girth. Both testicles are smaller now. my ejaculate quantity is lower. The mixture is generally more liquid, plus my recovery period is several days, not hours. Having natural sex (I.e. w/o erection enhancement drugs or rings) is no longer possible.
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This past year has marked a shift in MsPatty’s ongoing efforts. She has been more active in Her efforts to cause short-term, and potentially long-term, impact in what remains of my libido. During the last JD, She clamped the cord to the right testicle with Her Burdizzo. Although it appears to remain somewhat viable, there has been an ache in it's cord this entire year. This experience has left a convincing reminder that She can take Her property between my thighs whenever She wants.
MsPatty has also been working ’her boys’ over the past year, physically crushing and extending them in Her hands. Her fingers probe deeply, and frequently compress their plumbing. The most recent visit had a return to applying the thick colored bands, achieving the placement of 7 of them, again compressing the plumbing, and cutting blood flow for a short, but not insignificant period of time.
After each of this years’ visits, the return of my limited libido has taken a little longer. i have also experienced more frequent hot flashes. i have again been having greater difficulty in remaining temperature-comfortable when going to bed, particularly as the nights have grown colder. A recent head cold that likely had a mild fever left me soaked under the covers more than a few times - something which hasn't happened in recent memory. As noted before, physical activity also tends to also bring hot flashes, along with a tendency to get tired sooner. As the weather turned cold in recent weeks, and i was working outside, i could also feel my penis retracting deeply inward at times, like a negative sexual response. It's certainly been an additional negative confidence booster.
MsPatty also remains focused on achieving her ‘Stolen Orgasm’. She hopes to perfect the process soon. She wants to be able to extract the stored ejaculate which has been held due to chastity, all without achieving or enjoying climax. Removing 'the load' without achieving climax leaves much of the hormonal edge, but removes a key component of enjoying a release, and as Her theory goes, prevents 'accidents'.
At this point, nearly all of my releases since the summer have been required to be ruined. That has meant they must be blocked, or extracted while a tube is deeply inserted with a syringe vacuum applied, which has been uncomfortable. The number of natural releases i have been permitted this year is approximately 10, with most of them occurring much earlier in the year. Since September, i have only been permitted a ruined release about every 2 weeks. The total count this year is barely past 30, and there are of course only 52 weeks in a year.
Friday, December 8, 2023
Sunday, July 2, 2023
After Effects: sub jason 3.5yr Summary
In sub jason's own words...
MsPatty has again requested a summary update of my journey with Her. As far as functional improvements, very little has changed between my thighs. my T-test results technically crossed the clinical low-normal line over the winter of 2023. In the greater picture, my overall testosterone level still remains ~1/3 of what it was prior to MsPatty's modifications in December 2019. i still experience random hot flashes. my energy level (libido) to pursue the opposite sex remains low. What has recently changed for me is my realization of how many of MsPatty's powerful desires are behind this journey. During the first 4 years, i envisioned my high libido, and MsPatty's will, competed in many rounds of strength and endurance. Then, during <December 2019's epic engagement>, She effortlessly decimated my libido in an hour. The last ~3.5 years has effectively been MsPatty toying with what survived, me struggling with the reality of what transpired, and Her waiting patiently to administer the coup de grace.
After the first meeting in December 2015, MsPatty decided She would one day lead me to experience my fantasy of castration. During the Summer of 2016 visit, She used Her <Burdizzo on both cords> to begin that process. This allowed Her to demonstrate how fragile a connection they had to me. She also declared that she was taking ownership of Her testicles. Via regular physical and psychological strikes, She gradually separated them from the sexual image which i held of myself. Even while this transpired, Her next desire soon emerged. She sought to slowly diminish (damage) the function of one of Her nuts between my thighs. She focused greater physical attention on the slightly smaller right orb, and/or its cord. Any time i raised a concern, She pointed out that the other one would still try to make up for it... December 2019's activities would also impose a greater effect upon it's function and size. During Her recent Judgement Day 2022, MsPatty again targeted her 'little boy', <clamping his cord> for ~5 minutes. While it appears to have survived Her latest efforts, i continue to feel the cord's ache ~6 months later. Knowing that MsPatty is always pushing, Her continued pursuit is expected to cause it further functional decline.
During November 2019, MsPatty decided to surprise me. In what should have been my 'fantasy castration experience', She attempted to band Her nuts for an hour, but i was unable to last past 30 minutes. To make up for this, i quickly promised to last the full hour (in December). But MsPatty always wants more. She now desired for me to experience an extended period of healing. She wanted the expected 2-3 months of castration-like symptoms to linger for a bit longer. She introduced Her acrylic ball press and added Everclear injections to realize this greater result, also increasing the risk for permanent damage. As She spoke of in <July 2020>, MsPatty more than met and exceeded Her expectations in December 2019. She feels no remorse at the result. She took full control of 'Her boys' between my thighs that night. From this point forward, my ability to engage in and enjoy sexual activities abruptly declined. Sexual intimacy (i.e. - intercourse) with a woman will never be the same for me. my efforts to get erect and effect a release is now high, with low a reward.
In the meantime, MsPatty continues to manipulate what little remains of my libido. For now, i am still permitted to try to engage in sexual intercourse with a willing woman. However, Her little pill is my only option to reliably get hard for a little while. It is my only hope to penetrate, while i must still navigate all the complications of intimacy it now entails. In my only other attempt to get laid ~2 years ago, without a pill, i failed to enter my partner. Because i must use Her property (Her boys) and Her pill, i am required to notify MsPatty about any opportunity to have sex, and report on what transpired soon after. Almost six years have now passed since i was last sexually intimate with a woman.
Soon after my first visit Her, MsPatty deemed me to be a chronic masturbator. In the ~4 years which followed, She gradually reduced my frequency of self-indulgent releases from an average of ~12-14 times/week, to ~1/week. More recently, that average has fallen further, now with only 22 releases in the first half / ~26 weeks of 2023. Always desiring more control, MsPatty now requires me to seek Her permission before releasing at all times. She has warned She will grant it less frequently than before. Also, when i am permitted to self-release, i am not permitted to enjoy them anymore. i.e. it must be blocked/ruined. What i used to enjoy no longer brings me pleasure, and instead my frustration from it brings pleasure to MsPatty.
i know my ongoing struggle with the effects of low testosterone continues to thrill MsPatty. At the same time, i had never expected to be permanently modified or castrated. i have slowly come to terms with Her permanent modifications. This includes the erectile dysfunction and my loss of sexual confidence. Despite the last three Judgement Days each granting me another year of use of 'Her boys', my mind has clung to the notion that this has all been part of my fantasy castration experience. Only in the past month have i come to realize one more of MsPatty's deepest desires. Her desire has been to turn my castration fantasy into my reality. She knows that, while She plays hard with Her modified 'boys', one day it will be too much. Once they fail, Her desire will be fulfilled.
In the meantime, MsPatty calls Her boys home to visit Her every few months, and i must bring them. MsPatty fully controls what remains of my sex.
Monday, January 2, 2023
Facing Judgment Day...sub jason.
On Saturday, December 31st, 2022, sub jason faced My judgment, his judgment day. In the afternoon, he arrived as instructed and soon after was locked into My cage for a couple of hours till I was ready to begin. The hours in the cage also allowed his anticipation to grow.
After allowing him to stew in My cage, I released him and ordered him onto the bed to administer enemas in preparation for the night which took a while. Once he was clean as a whistle, I introduced him to a couple of "games." The Stretch & Shout game is a person favorite involving My balls between his thighs tied to one end of the bed and My cleavage at the other end. The goal was for him to reach My large breast without using his hands. The only way to achieve this is to stretch My balls. <wicked grin>
After enjoying him for a while, it was time for him to face the verdict. The verdict, I used the burdizzo to clamp the smaller/weaker testicle. In the coming weeks, we will know whether or not the clamping was a success. The remaining testicle, I have allowed him to use for another year.
Go to My video gallery below to watch as I pass judgment.
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Saturday, December 17, 2022
Latest Libido Questionnaire: sub jason.
This is the latest libido questionnaire that sub jason has filled out prior to Judgment Day 2022. This should give you an idea of his current situation, libido wise.
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You are receiving this questionnaire to help Me understand your current libido/sex drive, and/or possibly any change in it you may have experienced in our journey together. I may have attached this to a correspondence with additional guidance or context, so I need you to follow that. If not, your answers should generally apply to the past few weeks unless otherwise noted.
If some question numbers are missing, they may have not applied to our shared interests/experiences/journey, and I have omitted them. Some questions may be based upon physiological responses (or lack thereof) which you are not experiencing and may not have an answer at this time.
The familiar name I know you by (sub/sissy/bttm)_sub jason.
Make note of the day/month/year when you are filling this out here: 12/12/2022.
About how long ago was the experience which brought about observable changes in your libido?
1082_ days/weeks/months/years (Hint: Google can help, if you ask Her correctly)
Now save the questionnaire before you continue, replacing 'male' with your familiar name, and replace mm and yy with the current month and year.
1. Prior to this experience, would you have considered your male libido to have been 1) below normal, 2) average, 3) strong? (3)
2. Please respond to sub-questions a-f from the actual experience. If this is a repeat questionnaire, copy in your past answers:
a) Did My testicle(s) swell as part of the experience? Yes
b) Did either/both of My testicles remain elevated/pulled up close to your torso for an extended period of time afterward? Yes
c) If either 1 or 2, for approximately how long before one/both returned to normal size/extension? (explain) ~2 weeks
d) Did you notice if your cord(s) had any bumps, sensitivity, or thickness changes? Yes, both, thicker and more sensitive
e) If 1, 2, or 4 was answered Yes, have either/any caused you any abdominal discomfort? Not since the experience.
f) Within the context of the above questions, do you have anything else to include? The immediate symptoms from the experience have given way to long-term permanent changes. i am sexually dysfunctional.
3. Compared to before the experience, would you describe your current sex drive to be 1) unchanged, 2) reduced, 3) missing, 4) improved, 5) returned to normal. Between 2 and 3.
3a. If this is for a follow-up questionnaire, how has it changed since the last time you answered? i remain sexually unable to perform and am limited to masturbation.
4. Since the experience or last questionnaire (whichever is most recent), has your groin area experienced more sweat/humidity/dampness than usual? No changes at ~3 years.
5. Has your ability to achieve spontaneous (non-physically stimulated) erections changed? Please describe anything you may have noticed. - i remain unable to gain an erection without physical stimulation, or pharmaceutical assistance.
6. Since the experience or last questionnaire, has your flaccid/at-rest member (inside underwear & jeans/shorts) changed in sensitivity? i.e. - has it become more sensitive? or less, possibly like normal skin elsewhere on your body? or some combination of both? - No changes since last questionnaire. my penis sensitivity remains low.
7. Aside from any lingering physical symptoms from the experience, do you mentally 'feel' any different between your thighs than before? As in neutral, something missing, void? If so, explain: - i am still very close to neutral most of the time. Sometimes in the morning, when testosterone is at its highest, i may notice something more, and when i am on extended chastity.
8. Has your at-rest member become noticeably smaller/retracted/atrophied? and/or gained in size? If changes have occurred, explain the most recent you have noticed.
- i remain the same as i have for much of the past three years - my package is smaller, and best attributed to the size of a male entering puberty.
9. Can you currently achieve a partial (thickening) or fairly/full erection at this time with physical stimulation? - Yes, barely.
9a. If you can, what, if any, difference would you say there is in length and/or girth? - i remain unchanged in the past two years. i can reach about 5" with varying levels of hardness, but generally less than it used to be.
9b. Assuming there is a difference from before the experience, how does this change make you feel? - Unable to engage in natural sexual activity with other women, and i am thereby lacking in interest to engage.
10. Since the experience, have you felt the need to masturbate more/unchanged/less often? (an explanation is encouraged if any change is noticed) - i continue to desire to edge and maturate, but biologically i am unable to produce enough fluids for more than 2 releases a week, with a few days between.
11. Within the past ~2-4 weeks, have you been able to successfully achieve a release of sexual fluids? No - i am currently in chastity for what is my 3rd week of ~5 weeks.
11a. If Yes, and if several times, about how often have you released in that period? N/A
11b. IF Yes, about how long is it until the urge to do so again returned? N/A
12. Assuming you have successfully released, and been able to observe it, have you noticed any changes in your ejaculate (quantity/contents/viscosity/mixture) since prior to the experience? It remains a poor subset of my former healthy ejaculate. i produce less ejaculate per release, over a much-extended recovery period.
13. Have you felt any hot flashes? or woken up with night sweats? or found it difficult at times to get warm/stay cool? Feeling warm after going to bed remains an initial challenge on many nights even though there are no changes in temperature in my dwelling.
13a. If yes, which of these? and about how frequently have they occurred? (in the past ~2-4 weeks) - Once or twice in a given week.
14. Have you needed to make any changes to your toilet routine when urinating or defecating? None beyond taking care when sitting the direction of my urine stream
14a. If Yes, what do you find yourself doing differently?
15. Has your scrotum's size and/or it's average elasticity changed (less/more) since the experience? (an explanation is encouraged if any change has been noticed) - it has lost some of its stretch, and has visibly become smaller, having smaller internal components.
16. Has the contour/texture/feel of either of My testicles (inside the scrotum) changed in any way? Aside from their size, please describe any changes noticed.
- None since last questionnaire, although visual comparisons to 2015 show they are notably smaller and no longer robust in their presence within my scrotum.
17. After any initial testicle swelling subsided from the experience, have you noticed any atrophy and/or regained mass in them since, and in any way?
17a. If yes, what is your current size estimate (%) vs before their physical size before this experience?
- None since the last questionnaire or the experience subsided beyond noted volume observations.
18. Have you (or someone else) noticed any change in your emotional temperament? (the urge to cry, get irate, experience mood swings, etc).
18a. If so, which? and under what circumstances was it noticed?
- None that i know of.
19. Would you say that you have lost some/any strength or upper body muscle?
- Its likely possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors. i have less energy overall, and my strength and stamina are down.
20. Has your sexual pursuit of/interest in/interactions with the female sex changed in any way as a result of this experience? Yes
20a. If Yes, explain what you feel is different: i no longer have a desire to pursue female partnership with a sexual component. i am unable to contribute that component to a relationship if they desire adding it.
21. Have you gained any weight? or possibly gone up/down any clothing sizes (i.e. - around your waistline)? If so, about how much?
- It seems possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors. i am probably 60 lbs heavier since the ~2018-2019-time frame.
22. Have you noticed any changes in facial hair growth or it's texture?
- None
23. Have you felt any difference in your male sexual identity?
23a. If Yes, please explain how it may have changed since the experience, and/or since the previous questionnaire.
- None since last questionnaire, but i remain sexually impotent.
24. Has any body hair (arms, legs, chest, back, etc) changed in any way?
- No changes
25. Has there been any sensitivity changes in your nipples, or breast texture?
- None noticed.
26. Assuming you are able to achieve sexual release (via masturbation, coitus, etc), please answer this section:
a. has the lead-up process/effort of reaching the point of climax changed for you in any way? - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.
a1. If Yes, how would you describe those changes? - A significant effort remains to get erect, and the approach to the plateau is difficult to enjoy/manage.
b. has the euphoric reward (afterglow) period changed for you in any way? - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.
b1. If Yes, what seems different now? - It remains much less rewarding than it used to be before and disappears quickly.
27. On a scale of 1-10, with 1 representing highest effort/lowest reward (i.e. - not worth it/unable to achieve), and 10 representing the lowest effort/highest reward (i.e. possibly from sometime before this experience), how would you rate your current climax effort/reward experience? It remains in the 2-3 range.
28. Given an ideal situation to engage in sexual copulation right now, with an interested partner, how do you rate your chances of physically participating (as a male)? Use the scale of 1=failure to 5=high success: 2, and only because i have a blue pill. My only attempt in the past two years was a failure (without the pill).
29. Is there anything you might want to add as an additional comment or observation? Please use the end of this questionnaire for this:
- i know You do not consider me castrated, but i continue to suffer the effects of my castration fantasy, and probably will for the rest of my life.
Do not be surprised if I require you to fill out this questionnaire, or an updated version of it, again in the future.
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Current Measurements: sub jason.
These are the current, pre-judgment day measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs.
Left Testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (old peak)
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (new peak)
Right testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691
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Sunday, December 4, 2022
September Measurements: sub jason.
These are the last measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs. As you can see, the variations are most likely natural fluctuations at this point. They will be measured again soon before Judgment Day 2022.
Left Testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (peak)
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Right testicle:
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
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Sunday, November 27, 2022
Judgment Day 2022 Countdown: sub jason...
On December 26th, 2019, I injected Everclear into each of My testicles between sub jason's thighs, 30 minutes into an hour-long banding. I chose to allow him to keep My balls for another year but with a reminder that has lasted since then.
Once again on December 31st, 2022, I will be making My choice whether to allow him to keep My balls for another year or to take them this time. On Twitter, I am posting surveys, videos and pictures from the last almost 3 years. Be a part of My decision this year, share them and possibly be a part of this life changing event.
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Monday, January 3, 2022
Judgement Day 2021: sub jason...
Yes indeed, Judgement Day 2021 for sub jason finally came on New Year's Eve. My decision wasn't swift, I considered all My options and made the choice that fulfilled My desires for the time being.
Curious what happened? Oh yes, I am in the mood to share so check out the 4 videos below on My video gallery.
Over the next few weeks, I will be posting more so keep an eye out.
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Sunday, December 19, 2021
After Effects: sub jason, questionnaire after ~2 years
From 19 months ago (5/2020), sub jason filled out this form with some points of castration experiences made by others. his answers then, and now at 24 months since 12/26/2019, appear side-by-side:
For the first month or so:
You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.
5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.
24Mos: i continue to feel sexually inadequate between my thighs.
You will gradually lose your sex drive.
5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later. While some has returned, it's still currently low.
24Mos: The interest in a partner has settled. my basic desire is for an orgasm once or twice a week by masturbation, which is all i am able to achieve.
Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.
5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.
24Mos: i edge constantly, but rarely get hard. i am biologically unable to produce enough fluid for an enjoyable release more than 1-2 times a week.
Past a few weeks to a month:
You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.
5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.
24Mos: i am more sensitive to hard work and more excessive temps. The struggle to regulate my body temperature/comfort zone is more noticeable.
Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.
5Mos: It lost ~20% of its former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.
24Mos: i have not regained any additional length. Achieving sufficient firmness still takes effort. Except for the brief period before a release, i am a stubby but semi-soft/thicker 3+".
Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.
5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.
24Mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was over a year ago. It continues to affect my ability to become and stay hard and aroused.
As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.
5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.
24Mos: Much of my past evaluation was masked by the optimism that my libido was still returning. my libido is very weak. my loins feel neutral most of the time.
Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.
5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.
24Mos: The volume calculations at 24 months, and visual evaluation, indicate a testicle volume which has settled just below human male average.
Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.
5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.
24Mos: Erections remain an effort to achieve and require multiple sources of stimulation to gain and maintain. i am otherwise limp all of the time.
M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.
Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.
M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.
Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.
You may experience more emotional episodes.
Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.
Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.
You may lose upper body muscle and strength.
Some may have been lost at this point, with a note toward both age and COVID lifestyle contributing to reduced physical activity.
You will likely gain abdominal fat.
No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so toward 24 months due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical activity.
You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.
5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1–2-month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.
24Mos: The interest returned for a while, but the reality of my inability to perform naturally has been proven. My desire to pursue someone, then reveal i am impotent, seems like a waste of effort.
Mustache and bear growth reduces dramatically.
Not seen yet.
Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.
Did not occur, although some slowing of baldness may have happened.
You will feel as if you are asexual.
Did not occur.
Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.
Did not occur.
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Sunday, December 12, 2021
Current Measurements: sub jason.
Current measurements of My testicles between sub jason's thighs. As you can see from the first measurements in March 2020, they have increased in size since the original measurements 3 months after being banded and injected with Everclear. This increase happened during the healed process.
- Left testicle:
March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635
July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407
Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520
Sept 2020: 3.9cm x 3.2cm x 1.9cm -> 99.324
Oct 2020: 3.85cm x 3.2cm x 1.85cm -> 95.470
Nov 2020: 3.95cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 101.011
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18
*Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
- Right testicle:
March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155
May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166
Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155
Sept 2020: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 126.803
Oct 2020: 4.2cm x 3.5cm x 2.35cm -> 144.701
Nov 2020: 4.35cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 140.304
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
*Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
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Sunday, December 5, 2021
Countdown 2021 Begins Now: sub jason.
On December 26th 2019 I injected Everclear into each of My testicles between sub jason's thighs, 30 minutes into an hour long banding. I chose to allow him to keep My balls for another year but with a reminder.
Judgement day, December 26th, 2020 then came. One syringe was filled with saline which would allow him to keep My testicles for another year and one syringe filled with enough Everclear to render My testicles truly castrated. I allowed him a choice, a 50/50 choice. With his choice, he was allowed to keep them one more year.
Once again on December 31st 2021, I will be making My choice whether to allow him to keep My balls for another year or to take them. On Twitter, I am posting surveys, videos and pictures from the last 2 years during this journey.
Be a part of My decision. Share My posts on Twitter and possibly be a part of this life changing event.
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Sunday, October 24, 2021
Fetishist w returns...
As I stood back to admire My progress so far, I couldn't help but snap a picture. Fet w's scrotum in the process of being infused with 1000ml's of saline, his bladder being taken over by My catheter and his ass in the process of being opened up enough to take My fist as well as using a cock pump to produce an anal prolapse. Such a lovely sight.
After I gave him back his ability to use his bladder by removing the catheter, I began finger fucking his urethra. By the time I was finished, his piss hole was fucked deep and gaping. <wicked grin>
And yes, I have video to share which will be posted in a few hours.
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Tuesday, October 12, 2021
An Afternoon with Fet w: 100 Needle Challenge.
This past week when Fetishist w visited, I decided it was time to amuse Myself by using him for the 100 Needle Challenge which I even took video of to share. Yes, it's a long video but so worth it.
So who else has the "balls" to take the challenge? Those that do, just use the contact form here on LeatherRealm.
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Sunday, September 19, 2021
Long Distance Banding: sub boy r...
A New Beginning: In sub boy r's own words...
The past 48 hours have been some of the most rewarding and fulfilling in my life. Because on Friday evening I was banded for the first time.
My first meeting with Mistress Patty was a few weeks ago. She patiently and thoroughly explored my dreams and desires. In short, I want to live life as a castrated male, with no more testosterone or libido. Mistress Patty encouraging me to say these things out loud, and being honest with her and with myself, was a major step forwards for me. She told me to buy a tri-bander, and we booked our meeting for Friday evening.
On Friday I was excited but also quite nervous. Mistress Patty soon put me at my ease and with great kindness, care and patience talked me through exactly what she wanted me to do. The first band was hard to get on. It was fiddly getting both testicles through the band, and when I started to loosen the tension to ease the band off the three prongs, it slipped off one of them before I was ready and the band smacked into my testicle with great force – which was highly painful! The second prong released easily, and the third which much more effort but suddenly I realized that the band was on! There was a wave of pressure which was more of an ache than a pain, which soon subsided. My heart raced for a while, but it was mainly out of excitement. For the first time in my life I had been banded and taken the first step towards the new me!
Mistress Patty was very encouraging during this time, asking lots of questions which I suspect was to distract me a bit from any pain and discomfort. I was just wondering how long I was to keep the band on (I had assumed the first time would only be a few minutes) when Mistress Patty told me to load another one on the tri-bander. I was momentarily stunned. Should I do it? Then I thought, of course I should. By now I had complete trust in Mistress Patty and I wanted to show her I was serious about this. So a second band went on next to the first. It actually went on much easier – it was slightly harder pulling the testicles through because they were quite a bit tighter due to the first band, but it seemed easier getting it off the prongs. Now this felt real. Now I knew that serious damage was starting to be done to the spermatic cords. And totally at peace with it and happy!
Fairly soon I started to feel nauseous, to the point of bile flooding into my mouth. Mistress Patty explained that this was because the cords were being damaged, and advised me to apply ice under the scrotum. This helped but soon I began to feel shaky and Mistress Patty let me cut the bands off. This itself is an intensely painful experience – when the rubber finally gives way after much careful cutting, they release with a snap that sends immense pain through your body and makes you cry out.
The bands had caused some irritation and minor bleeding, and left deep marks on the skin. The first thing I noticed was that my scrotum and testicles were completely numb. And I felt great – a wave of euphoria came over me and kept me on a crest of excitement for a couple of hours, at which point the adrenalin stopped and I fell fast asleep, sleeping better than I have for ages.
The next morning, I awoke with a semi-erection, but some exploratory fiddling showed me that there was no way anything was going to happen. And I didn’t want it to. My scrotum was still numb and the skin still sore, but I felt completely at peace. Mistress Patty has said that she will help me take care of such soft erections, and I really look forward to that. Throughout Saturday I was tired, but happy. Today some (but not all) of the feeling has returned, and I still feel great! One difference today is that my scrotum is much tighter than it normally is.
This was the first step on my castration journey, a journey that we have agreed will end in Mistress Patty’s hands with her burdizzo. Before then I hope to enjoy more banding experiences under Mistress Patty’s instruction. Hers is now the guiding hand and voice in this, the most important part of my life.
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Sunday, August 15, 2021
Long Distance Results: Sissy michelle
Results: Sissy michelle's own words...
In the beginning when I met MsPatty I had a thing for cross dressing. After a brief phone call She agreed to meet me. But of course She insisted that I dress prior to our meeting and arrive all dressed up. When arriving and entering Leather Realm MsPatty immediately commented on my legs high heels and clothes that I wore. I think at this point she had planned on how all our sessions would go. She remarked on how there was a bulge in my skirt, and with legs like mine that I didn't need testicles. After a little meet and greet conversation to get aquatinted I was in restrains and before I could blink the testicles were inside the jaws of the burdizzo with pressure being applied to the handles. Was I about to loose them? MsPatty showed mercy and that day I left Leather Realm with a new understanding. i was the submissive and told what to do!
In our long distance phone session that followed I was told to stretch the spermatic cords regularly, which i did, But soon after our sessions took a different direction with being instructed to buy different items for our sessions. A bander and castration rings, large rubber bands, dildo, and a nylon stocking to have on hand for various stretching and tying application. Has things first started the bander was used with the castration rings being placed placed on my scrotum for ten to twenty minutes. This would render a certain calm to my libido which i was thankful for, usually lasting a couple of weeks. Then once again i would schedule another session seeking the relief of a very active and i may add at this time annoying libido. The calm was great but only lasted a few weeks. Has time went on during the phone sessions that followed, i noticed the bands being left on long and longer, MsPatty being pleased with the increasing time. At longest just short of an hour. Along with the castration bands around the scrotum additional rubber bands were to be placed on the clit, just behind the head, then mid shaft, and again at the base near the body. This left me completely numb down there. The result was my two weeks of no libido went to a month or possibly a little longer. But a different side effect then became obvious, I could no longer get an erection or could i ejaculate. These functions are pretty much gone has a result. If there is an occasional erection it is not very firm, i could not have sex with a woman unless it was with my tongue. And to ejaculate is rare and small in quantity. Oh by the way since i did mention small, the size of my clit has shrunk to half its original size. Testosterone test levels have dropped into the low range. All this results from a few in person sessions and many phone sessions.
I must say with all the changes that have gone on, my sexual preference has changed to being more open along with my feminine side being dominate in my life. Strange what the future holds and how guided by MsPatty has redirected my life in such a positive way.
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Sunday, August 8, 2021
Long Distance Session Results: sissy michelle...
Over the years, I've been asked more than once whether or not Phone Sessions or for that matter any long distance session via Text, Email, Skype/Zoom or Twitter DM can involve medical especially involving Castration Fetish or Body Modification. Can Castration and or Body Mod long distance sessions actually produce results? Yes, long distance sessions can most definitely involve Medical which includes Castration/Body Mods and can produce desired results.
When using My Session Contact Form to schedule a long distance session, make sure you have the needed supplies which will be used during our session. If our shared fetish involves needles, make sure you have needles for Me to use. If our shared fetish is Castration Banding, make sure you have a Castration Bander. Precaution items are also a good idea like latex gloves and alcohol pads.
Do you wish to schedule a long distance session but don't have the ability to do phone or cam sessions? Email, Text Message or Twitter Direct Messages for an hour block of time uninterrupted are also options which can produce the same results as phone sessions or can be used to discuss the fetishes such as Castration that we share.
Instructing sissy michelle to use a Castration Bander which places a wide band just above the testicles within the scrotum, this time it was left on for almost an hour. All the while, I instructed her to slide a hard cock deep into her cunt. As you can see above, she was quite sore and red when the band was removed. Days afterwards, her libido dipped while the spermatic cords healed which also prevented her from ejaculating with My property between her thighs.
Panties simply doesn't look good covering an erect clit. How to correct this? Those thick, wide bands you find on broccoli can fix that. Yes, again sissy michelle this time was instructed to wrap 3 bands in specific areas of the clit for close to an hour. Immediate results was for a few days, she was unable to achieve an erection resulting in smooth panties.
For those searching for long term results just as sissy michelle does, multiple phone sessions can produce longer, more permanent results as you can see from her Testosterone results within the top picture. The desired goal? To decrease her testosterone and have smooth panties permanently. <wicked grin>
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