After Effects: sub jason 4 year Summary

In sub jason's own words...

sub jason's 4yr Summary

MsPatty has again requested a summary update for the 4th anniversary of Her Judgement Day (JD).

On the evening of December 26, 2019, MsPatty had her way between my thighs during an hour-long banding. During the initial 30 minutes of being banded, she pressed everything flat with an acrylic vice.  For the second 30 minutes, She introduced 3cc of Everclear split between both testicles, biased toward the right.  Her primary goal was to temporarily induce the symptoms of castration.  She knew the banding would likely cause an abrupt loss of testosterone production.  This would in turn result in loss of libido, loss of erections, and essentially all reproductive output, for somewhere around 2-3 months.  With the addition of the Everclear, She was secretly hoping for some additional libido dimming/damage to occur which would result in a longer heal time, and/or possibly a slight reduction in my already high testosterone level.

The results were, in Her opinion, much greater than She expected.  Instead of something temporary, there has been a permanent and significant loss in sexual function, which has thrilled MsPatty to no end.  my testosterone level crashed, as expected, and now only hovers around the clinically low-normal line.  It was a loss of ~2/3 of the level i once knew.  my libido is now barely noticeable.  i am unable to get mentally triggered erections, and constant physical stimulation is required to maintain what am able to achieve, which has also lost length and girth.  Both testicles are smaller now.  my ejaculate quantity is lower.  The mixture is generally more liquid, plus my recovery period is several days, not hours.  Having natural sex (I.e. w/o erection enhancement drugs or rings) is no longer possible.  

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This past year has marked a shift in MsPatty’s ongoing efforts.  She has been more active in Her efforts to cause short-term, and potentially long-term, impact in what remains of my libido.  During the last JD, She clamped the cord to the right testicle with Her Burdizzo.  Although it appears to remain somewhat viable, there has been an ache in it's cord this entire year.  This experience has left a convincing reminder that She can take Her property between my thighs whenever She wants.

MsPatty has also been working ’her boys’ over the past year, physically crushing and extending them in Her hands.  Her fingers probe deeply, and frequently compress their plumbing.  The most recent visit had a return to applying the thick colored bands, achieving the placement of 7 of them, again compressing the plumbing, and cutting blood flow for a short, but not insignificant period of time.

After each of this years’ visits, the return of my limited libido has taken a little longer.  i have also experienced more frequent hot flashes.  i have again been having greater difficulty in remaining temperature-comfortable when going to bed, particularly as the nights have grown colder.  A recent head cold that likely had a mild fever left me soaked under the covers more than a few times - something which hasn't happened in recent memory.  As noted before, physical activity also tends to also bring hot flashes, along with a tendency to get tired sooner.  As the weather turned cold in recent weeks, and i was working outside, i could also feel my penis retracting deeply inward at times, like a negative sexual response.  It's certainly been an additional negative confidence booster.

MsPatty also remains focused on achieving her ‘Stolen Orgasm’. She hopes to perfect the process soon.  She wants to be able to extract the stored ejaculate which has been held due to chastity, all without achieving or enjoying climax.  Removing 'the load' without achieving climax leaves much of the hormonal edge, but removes a key component of enjoying a release, and as Her theory goes, prevents 'accidents'.

At this point, nearly all of my releases since the summer have been required to be ruined.  That has meant they must be blocked, or extracted while a tube is deeply inserted with a syringe vacuum applied, which has been uncomfortable.  The number of natural releases i have been permitted this year is approximately 10, with most of them occurring much earlier in the year.   Since September, i have only been permitted a ruined release about every 2 weeks. The total count this year is barely past 30, and there are of course only 52 weeks in a year.

After Effects: sub jason 6 Week Summary

sub jason 6 Week Summary

This is from 6 weeks after Judgment Day 2022.  What follows is a summary, in sub jason’s own words, of those events, and the after effects…so far.

Judgement Day 2022 began in the late afternoon of 12/31.  i spent the initial hours being locked in MsPatty’s cage.  In the early evening, after MsPatty decided it was time, i was let out, and received an enema.  i was then restrained on the bed, with my legs spread and ankles high, and the hood & blindfold took away my vision.  MsPatty began Her Judgment Day games with Her Tri-bander.  She applied a stacked series of 4 thick bands and left them on for 25 minutes.  She also used her acrylic press during the banding time.  The stacked bands eventually began to hurt similar to what i remember towards the end of the hour of the single golden band from ~3 years prior until She cut them off.  i know, after a short rest, MsPatty amused Herself in various other ways over the next several hours.  Much of what followed i am missing / short on details, because of Her Judgement at the end.  Because of the posted video, i know MsPatty used the pillory w/the leather slapper. She also did ball punching, and 'stretch & shout'.  i don't recall much detail from that period.

As it became late in the evening, MsPatty applied Her Burdizzo as Judgement to my right cord for ~10 minutes.  She had decided She was again going after the smaller/weaker testicle in my scrotum.  This ‘little boy’ of Hers has been Her ongoing focus since as far back as the second and third visits back in 2016, and also on December 2019, when it received a greater amount of MsPatty’s Everclear injection.  After the clamping ended, i spent the next hour or so shaking, and being held by Her.  my mind was in disbelief of what Her and Her Burdizzo had done, but my body knew something had happened.  MsPatty eventually directed me back into the cage, with a Texas catheter and bag, to try to sleep until morning.  The symptoms from Her Judgement Day 2022 began to show up during the overnight in the cage.

Between the multiple stacked bands and the clamping, both of ‘Her boys’ began to swell up, and became very firm.  The right cord became quite swollen and remained so for over 2 weeks.  The smaller right testicle swelled up even larger than the left for at least the next 3+ weeks.  It has since returned to be slightly smaller, as it was before.  At 6 weeks, both testicles have slowly returned to an approximate size of their Fall 2022 dimensions.  Both are still more firm than they used to be.  The right has varying amounts of tenderness at times, although more diminished in the past week or so.  The right cord has had an ache since Judgement Day, although slowly diminishing over the period.  It is a general ache which is noticeable during certain movements.

MsPatty has required me to report and collect my releases, and provide video or pictures of the output result, to gauge the effects of Her Judgement Day 2022.  i have reported that the urge to achieve a release, since December, is less frequent.  my average before Judgment Day was ~5 days between releases.  It has since become ~7 days between releases.  my fluid output for each release has also fallen.  Compared to the pass three years, i would now classify it as very poor.  Although the output seems thicker, i no can longer produce enough liquid content to truly ‘shoot’ anything.  Instead, it amounts to little more than a blob, or a few dribbles, even with the further extended recharge period.  It has become harder to get and stay erect with physical stimulation.  i am sometimes not fully hard when i achieve release.  i feel a twinge in the right cord as the muscle contracts while approaching the release trigger point.

It seems that MsPatty has further affected the functionality of Her boys between my thighs.  my already low libido has certainly taken another hit.  i felt a few hot flashes driving home, and over several days which followed, although none recently.  mr penis remains more retracted most of the time.  After the events of December 2019, i had expected, then had declining hope for, a reasonable recovery, most of which has never happened.  The very slow improvement progress i had seen through last summer has easily been dealt another setback.  MsPatty has not been encouraging any hope of recovery to my pre-Judgement Day 2022 level like she been had back in early 2020.  i am now thinking that additional permanent damage has transpired, and MsPatty's comments are in general agreement, but She is patient to let time pass and see the long-term results.  Of course, MsPatty also remains amused at my decline in interest/frequency to edge, to achieve a release, and the further decline in my reproductive fluid output.

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Soon sub jason will be bringing My balls between his thighs back to Me. At that time, I will be sending his blood sample off to the lab to test his current testosterone level. When those results are in, then we will know what impact that Judgment Day 2022 had. 

The MsPatty Effect

 

As you can see, I've had an effect on sub jason's releases as well as his testosterone for a few years now. 

Thanks goes to sub jason for the graph. 

I will be posting the results from the testosterone test that was taken on December 26th, just prior to Judgment Day 2022 on the weekly update.

Facing Judgment Day...sub jason.

On Saturday, December 31st, 2022, sub jason faced My judgment, his judgment day. In the afternoon, he arrived as instructed and soon after was locked into My cage for a couple of hours till I was ready to begin. The hours in the cage also allowed his anticipation to grow. 

After allowing him to stew in My cage, I released him and ordered him onto the bed to administer enemas in preparation for the night which took a while. Once he was clean as a whistle, I introduced him to a couple of "games." The Stretch & Shout game is a person favorite involving My balls between his thighs tied to one end of the bed and My cleavage at the other end. The goal was for him to reach My large breast without using his hands. The only way to achieve this is to stretch My balls. <wicked grin> 

After enjoying him for a while, it was time for him to face the verdict. The verdict, I used the burdizzo to clamp the smaller/weaker testicle. In the coming weeks, we will know whether or not the clamping was a success. The remaining testicle, I have allowed him to use for another year.

 Go to My video gallery below to watch as I pass judgment. 

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Latest Libido Questionnaire: sub jason.

This is the latest libido questionnaire that sub jason has filled out prior to Judgment Day 2022. This should give you an idea of his current situation, libido wise. 

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You are receiving this questionnaire to help Me understand your current libido/sex drive, and/or possibly any change in it you may have experienced in our journey together.  I may have attached this to a correspondence with additional guidance or context, so I need you to follow that.  If not, your answers should generally apply to the past few weeks unless otherwise noted.

If some question numbers are missing, they may have not applied to our shared interests/experiences/journey, and I have omitted them.  Some questions may be based upon physiological responses (or lack thereof) which you are not experiencing and may not have an answer at this time.

The familiar name I know you by (sub/sissy/bttm)_sub jason.

Make note of the day/month/year when you are filling this out here: 12/12/2022.

About how long ago was the experience which brought about observable changes in your libido?

1082_ days/weeks/months/years (Hint: Google can help, if you ask Her correctly)

Now save the questionnaire before you continue, replacing 'male' with your familiar name, and replace mm and yy with the current month and year.

1. Prior to this experience, would you have considered your male libido to have been 1) below normal, 2) average, 3) strong? (3)

2. Please respond to sub-questions a-f from the actual experience.  If this is a repeat questionnaire, copy in your past answers:

a) Did My testicle(s) swell as part of the experience?  Yes

b) Did either/both of My testicles remain elevated/pulled up close to your torso for an extended period of time afterward?  Yes

c) If either 1 or 2, for approximately how long before one/both returned to normal size/extension? (explain) ~2 weeks

d) Did you notice if your cord(s) had any bumps, sensitivity, or thickness changes?  Yes, both, thicker and more sensitive

e) If 1, 2, or 4 was answered Yes, have either/any caused you any abdominal discomfort? Not since the experience.

f) Within the context of the above questions, do you have anything else to include? The immediate symptoms from the experience have given way to long-term permanent changes.  i am sexually dysfunctional.

3. Compared to before the experience, would you describe your current sex drive to be 1) unchanged, 2) reduced, 3) missing, 4) improved, 5) returned to normal. Between 2 and 3.

3a. If this is for a follow-up questionnaire, how has it changed since the last time you answered? i remain sexually unable to perform and am limited to masturbation.

4. Since the experience or last questionnaire (whichever is most recent), has your groin area experienced more sweat/humidity/dampness than usual?  No changes at ~3 years.

5. Has your ability to achieve spontaneous (non-physically stimulated) erections changed?   Please describe anything you may have noticed. - i remain unable to gain an erection without physical stimulation, or pharmaceutical assistance.

6. Since the experience or last questionnaire, has your flaccid/at-rest member (inside underwear & jeans/shorts) changed in sensitivity? i.e. - has it become more sensitive? or less, possibly like normal skin elsewhere on your body? or some combination of both?  - No changes since last questionnaire.  my penis sensitivity remains low.

7. Aside from any lingering physical symptoms from the experience, do you mentally 'feel' any different between your thighs than before?  As in neutral, something missing, void?  If so, explain:  - i am still very close to neutral most of the time.  Sometimes in the morning, when testosterone is at its highest, i may notice something more, and when i am on extended chastity.

8. Has your at-rest member become noticeably smaller/retracted/atrophied? and/or gained in size?  If changes have occurred, explain the most recent you have noticed.

- i remain the same as i have for much of the past three years - my package is smaller, and best attributed to the size of a male entering puberty.

9. Can you currently achieve a partial (thickening) or fairly/full erection at this time with physical stimulation?  - Yes, barely.

9a. If you can, what, if any, difference would you say there is in length and/or girth? - i remain unchanged in the past two years.  i can reach about 5" with varying levels of hardness, but generally less than it used to be. 

9b. Assuming there is a difference from before the experience, how does this change make you feel?  - Unable to engage in natural sexual activity with other women, and i am thereby lacking in interest to engage.

10. Since the experience, have you felt the need to masturbate more/unchanged/less often? (an explanation is encouraged if any change is noticed) - i continue to desire to edge and maturate, but biologically i am unable to produce enough fluids for more than 2 releases a week, with a few days between. 

11. Within the past ~2-4 weeks, have you been able to successfully achieve a release of sexual fluids?  No - i am currently in chastity for what is my 3rd week of ~5 weeks.

11a. If Yes, and if several times, about how often have you released in that period? N/A

11b. IF Yes, about how long is it until the urge to do so again returned? N/A

12. Assuming you have successfully released, and been able to observe it, have you noticed any changes in your ejaculate (quantity/contents/viscosity/mixture) since prior to the experience? It remains a poor subset of my former healthy ejaculate.  i produce less ejaculate per release, over a much-extended recovery period.

13. Have you felt any hot flashes? or woken up with night sweats?  or found it difficult at times to get warm/stay cool? Feeling warm after going to bed remains an initial challenge on many nights even though there are no changes in temperature in my dwelling.

13a. If yes, which of these? and about how frequently have they occurred? (in the past ~2-4 weeks) - Once or twice in a given week.

14. Have you needed to make any changes to your toilet routine when urinating or defecating?  None beyond taking care when sitting the direction of my urine stream

14a. If Yes, what do you find yourself doing differently?

15. Has your scrotum's size and/or it's average elasticity changed (less/more) since the experience? (an explanation is encouraged if any change has been noticed) - it has lost some of its stretch, and has visibly become smaller, having smaller internal components.

16. Has the contour/texture/feel of either of My testicles (inside the scrotum) changed in any way?  Aside from their size, please describe any changes noticed.

- None since last questionnaire, although visual comparisons to 2015 show they are notably smaller and no longer robust in their presence within my scrotum.

17. After any initial testicle swelling subsided from the experience, have you noticed any atrophy and/or regained mass in them since, and in any way?  

17a. If yes, what is your current size estimate (%) vs before their physical size before this experience?

- None since the last questionnaire or the experience subsided beyond noted volume observations.

18. Have you (or someone else) noticed any change in your emotional temperament? (the urge to cry, get irate, experience mood swings, etc).

18a. If so, which? and under what circumstances was it noticed?

- None that i know of.

19. Would you say that you have lost some/any strength or upper body muscle?

- Its likely possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors.  i have less energy overall, and my strength and stamina are down.

20. Has your sexual pursuit of/interest in/interactions with the female sex changed in any way as a result of this experience?  Yes

20a. If Yes, explain what you feel is different: i no longer have a desire to pursue female partnership with a sexual component.  i am unable to contribute that component to a relationship if they desire adding it.

21. Have you gained any weight? or possibly gone up/down any clothing sizes (i.e. - around your waistline)?  If so, about how much?

- It seems possible, although COVID lifestyle and age are contributing factors.  i am probably 60 lbs heavier since the ~2018-2019-time frame.

22. Have you noticed any changes in facial hair growth or it's texture?

- None

23. Have you felt any difference in your male sexual identity?

23a. If Yes, please explain how it may have changed since the experience, and/or since the previous questionnaire.

- None since last questionnaire, but i remain sexually impotent.

24. Has any body hair (arms, legs, chest, back, etc) changed in any way?

- No changes

25. Has there been any sensitivity changes in your nipples, or breast texture?

- None noticed.

26. Assuming you are able to achieve sexual release (via masturbation, coitus, etc), please answer this section:

a. has the lead-up process/effort of reaching the point of climax changed for you in any way?  - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.

a1. If Yes, how would you describe those changes? - A significant effort remains to get erect, and the approach to the plateau is difficult to enjoy/manage.

b. has the euphoric reward (afterglow) period changed for you in any way?  - Yes, since the experience, no change since last questionnaire.

b1. If Yes, what seems different now? - It remains much less rewarding than it used to be before and disappears quickly.

27. On a scale of 1-10, with 1 representing highest effort/lowest reward (i.e. - not worth it/unable to achieve), and 10 representing the lowest effort/highest reward (i.e. possibly from sometime before this experience), how would you rate your current climax effort/reward experience?  It remains in the 2-3 range.

28. Given an ideal situation to engage in sexual copulation right now, with an interested partner, how do you rate your chances of physically participating (as a male)?  Use the scale of 1=failure to 5=high success:  2, and only because i have a blue pill.  My only attempt in the past two years was a failure (without the pill).

29. Is there anything you might want to add as an additional comment or observation?  Please use the end of this questionnaire for this:

- i know You do not consider me castrated, but i continue to suffer the effects of my castration fantasy, and probably will for the rest of my life. 

Do not be surprised if I require you to fill out this questionnaire, or an updated version of it, again in the future.

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Current Measurements: sub jason.

These are the current, pre-judgment day measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs. 

Left Testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (old peak)
Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51
Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405
Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728
Dec 2022: 4.38cm x 3.37cm x 2.4cm -> 148.39 (new peak)

Right testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25
Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43
Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567
Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281
Dec 2022: 4.28cm x 3.17cm x 2.37cm -> 134.691

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Before & After: sub jason.

Before & After in sub jason's own words...

You modified the natural biological functions between my thighs. Without a functional tool for having sex, i feel like a fish out of water.  The details:

- Before: High libido

- After: Low/Lack of libido

- Before: Fully viable releases possible 2-3 times a day, with 3rd output sufficient if enough hydration; recovery possible by the next day.

- After: Semi-viable releases possible 1-2 times a week, content quality/quantity is low/questionable on the second if too soon, recovery several days.

- Before: strong erection, good quantity/quality and rewarding ejaculations, high confidence.

- After: dysfunctional erection, poor quality/quantity releases, performance anxiety, lack of confidence.

- Before: Spontaneous erections possible at any time.

- After: Spontaneous erections impossible.  Both physical stimulation and mental interest, or pharmaceutical enhancement, needed.

- Before: 6"+ length, firm, able to penetrate a pussy.

- After: 5"+ length, semi-firm, unable to penetrate a pussy. 

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After Effects: sub jason 2 years, 11 months.

 

In sub jason's own words...

Sub Jason Update - 2 years, 11 months

MsPatty has noted to me that many still follow this journey i have been on with Her.  To be fair, little has changed physically since She shared my last personal update in September.  For those new to reading this journey, there is plenty of week by week and month by month detail in the posted summary details on MsPatty's Medical Blog.  There are my first visits starting in December 2015, with events as far back as July 2019 being relevant to now.  She has also been asked what were my interests? and what were, and now, are MsPatty's goals?  All i can say about the future is that all of us are curious where this may end up, but none of it is written yet.  This is because MsPatty is quite simply A Woman.  There is no script involved.  Even if there were one, She could easily change Her mind at any point, and i know at times She has.

The well summarized version of the past ~3 years is that MsPatty caused my fantasy castration experience to transpire on the evening of December 26, 2019 after a 3+ month stretch of chastity.  She spread a thick castration band on Her tri-bander and closed it around the neck of my scrotum early that evening.  She then forced excess fluids out of 'Her boys' past the band with an acrylic press.  Around 30 minutes into the banding, She injected a total of 3cc Everclear, and removed the band after an hour had passed.  From the moment the band closed, my testosterone began falling.  As the hour progressed, both testicles shut down.  The static Everclear we now know took an additional toll.  The chastity high i walked in with was quickly forgotten, and my once-strong libido faded away during the overnight.  The effects of male menopause (i.e. castration symptoms) took hold over the next few days.  Both testicles quickly swelled to more than 2x, then atrophied to about 1/3 their original size a few weeks later.  i noticed a minor hint of a libido appear after about three months, and some testicle volume returned over the year or so that followed but has not returned to what it was.  Only a minor ~1-2% improvement in T-levels has been seen each year.  It is obvious now that significant damage transpired, and i will probably never know a normal libido again.

At some point during this past year or so, i queried MsPatty about the results She had been aiming for.  Her response was that She hoped for a temporary, yet possibly extended, period of no libido (i.e. a castration experience).  This implied something longer than the ~2-3 months which an hour banding (solo) might typically have produced, with late spring 2020 or the summer more likely for my general recovery.  She had also noticed my fairly high (unmeasured but perceived) testosterone level over many prior visits.  She had hoped for a slight drop in that (i.e. some damage).  As noted in the frequent testing since, i have yet to reach even the low edge of normal testosterone levels.  Both of 'Her boys' are comparatively smaller now.  i remain limp without external physical stimulation or pharmaceutical enhancement, and even those physical effects are off from what i once achieved.  my libido is a mere shadow of what it once was, and at times barely perceivable.  MsPatty knows She far exceeded Her expectations, and this thrills the part of Her which craves needing to control.

MsPatty has been asked a number of times if this was what i wanted.  The question in effect being, did i, "no longer want be able to have normal heterosexual relations with women?"  As far as something permanent was concerned, the answer to that is no.  There was a fantasy involved, implying only a temporary experience.  i had an expectation that at some point i would have recovered much of my libido as it was before.  At the same time, i knew there were risks involved.  Some of them have contributed to what has since transpired, and i have to accept them.

MsPatty reminds me often that, while i am not truly castrated, the resulting impotence/sexual dysfunction from low testosterone does not bother Her.  She believes She has helped 'Her boys' to server a higher purpose (Her).  This has now become part of my extended journey with MsPatty.  She gets off on my ongoing struggles with a low to non-existent libido, and my inability to perform sexually.  Since the pandemic has eased, i know i have missed several opportunities to have sex with interested ladies of my age - all because of what has transpired.  From this, MsPatty knows She controls what remains of my sexual future and has effectively left Her permanent mark inside of me.  

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September Measurements: sub jason.

These are the last measurements of My balls between sub jason's thighs. As you can see, the variations are most likely natural fluctuations at this point. They will be measured again soon before Judgment Day 2022. 

Left Testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286

Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218

Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18 (peak)

Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51

Aug 2022: 4.2cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 107.405

Sep 2022: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 134.728

Right testicle:

Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916

Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431

Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761 (peak)

Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43

Aug 2022: 4.3cm x 3.2cm x 2.30cm -> 132.567

Sep 2022: 4.35cm x 3.25cm x 2.2cm -> 130.281

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Judgment Day 2022 Countdown: sub jason...

On December 26th, 2019, I injected Everclear into each of My testicles between sub jason's thighs, 30 minutes into an hour-long banding.  I chose to allow him to keep My balls for another year but with a reminder that has lasted since then.

Once again on December 31st, 2022, I will be making My choice whether to allow him to keep My balls for another year or to take them this time. On Twitter, I am posting surveys, videos and pictures from the last almost 3 years. Be a part of My decision this year, share them and possibly be a part of this life changing event. 

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After Effects: sub jason; 2 years & 9 months (~1000 days)

 

In sub jason's own words...

Since MsPatty shared my last personal update, there have been few observed changes.  my sensitivity to physical stimulation down below remains low.  In the early morning, when testosterone peaks, my ability to physically stimulate an erection is slightly easier, but nothing to celebrate.  Spontaneous erections from mental arousal alone remains elusive.  An erection, without maintaining physical stimulation, and my mental attention, quickly deflates.  Using a ring at the base sometimes helps maintain it a little, but it's not reliable.  my best erection today remains 1" shorter than it used to be, and always less firm.  i continue to experience difficulties in maintaining a comfortable body temperature, particularly during the overnight.  i have noted an overall reduction in personal energy and motivation for doing physical activities.

During my first visit in December 2015, 6-3/4 years ago, MsPatty confirmed my interest in Fantasy Castration.  Years later, She would reveal that by the end of that visit, She had decided on two goals.  1) She would one day leave Her mark on me, and 2) She would one day lead me to experience the symptoms of castration.  Four years later, She achieved both, and exceed her expectations on the latter.  Her achievement has permanently deprived me of my (formerly) strong libido.  Most of the sexual activities i once enjoyed i can no longer pursue.  MsPatty is not bothered by this significant outcome.  She claims this is Her way of reminding me of 'the male slut i used to be', regardless of my attempts to argue otherwise.  She highlights all of the poor choices i made over the past ~35 years.  Among them, She points to the many partners i had, and my multiple attempts with each, failing to impregnate any of them, even with my rare use of condoms.  MsPatty frequently reminds me She has (so far) allowed me to 'keep Her boys between my thighs', but in a greatly reduced functional state.

Between my thighs, it no longer feels like a strong and stable platform for engaging in sexual activity - it sometimes feels completely absent in the day or so after a release.  The urge to masturbate strikes once, or maybe twice, a week.  It used to occur most mornings and occasionally in the afternoon or evening.  To gain an erection, i have to continually stimulate myself by hand, mentally focusing on staying hard, and on what MsPatty has done there, instead of (previously) trying to enjoy the journey up the orgasmic incline with a random partner (real or fantasy) and ride the euphoric edge as long as possible.  my delivery process now has fewer pulses, each are weaker, and the thinner mixture is quickly exhausted.  It seems to take more energy from me to achieve, and the euphoria from it quickly fades.

Biologically, 3+ days must pass after a previous release before my body replenishes enough fluids for another reasonable discharge.  my output, when waiting less time, is drizzly, or merely a small squirt.  The overall quality, once copious and thick, is a thinner liquid with some thicker globs.  This implies lower overall sperm production, and lacking in other components in the mix.  i was once capable of ~2-3 viable releases a day, but like many of the vivid memories i had from past encounters, both have faded out of reach.  my only attempt at having penetrative sex since MsPatty's modifications was last year.  i attempted entering several times, with my most recent partner, after physically stroking myself to an erection, but quickly became too limp each time.  The last time i had successful sexual intercourse was with them ~5 years ago.  MsPatty has made it harder for me to reach an orgasm, made it less enjoyable once getting there, and made what i produce less viable - if it can ever be delivered on target again.

MsPatty has since graciously offered me a pill which can provide an erection for a short time.  The criteria for its use, and the delay before its effects show, make spontaneous use nearly impossible, and planned use difficult.  First, i must vet any possible partner with MsPatty.  The pill, taken orally, takes about 30 minutes to take effect.  It provides only about 30 minutes of useful stiffness, with no improvement in sensitivity.  i am only to take the pill if i am sure i am going to enter my partner's pussy - i cannot waste it on speculation or other activities.  Soon after, i am required to describe, in detail, the entire encounter to MsPatty.  i know my efforts must also please MsPatty in what i do, or i may not be granted another pill.  This leaves little overall time to just enjoy.  Other factors include 1) i am insecure, not knowing if i can reach a climax from just penetration stimulation - i am convinced a condom would make it all but impossible to feel anything, 2) my partners are relatively vanilla, and an explanation of where my issues come from are hardly pillow talk, and 3) i would have nothing left in my tank if a 'second effort' was called for.  MsPatty, of course, suggests i should, "...not concern myself with my little problems <wicker giggle>, just please your partner."

All of my frustration is directly attributed to low testosterone.  Prior to MsPatty’s modifications, each testicle would have functioned at ~50% (with a 50% reserve).  One fully healthy organ could still provide normal levels of testosterone, sperm, and generation of other related fluids.  From the most recent T-test, my level only improved a few percent closer to the low/normal line.  The function/output of each of 'her boys' is estimated at only 15-20%, with no reserve.  MsPatty has effectively reduced my testosterone level to ~1/3 of a normal male.   Only a very small improvement in T level has been gradually seen over the last 2+ years.  It seems unlikely that i will attain even 1/2 of my former level.  This also assumes MsPatty does not make further modifications.

MsPatty remains thrilled by my ongoing struggle from Her leaving Her eternal mark inside me.  She recently passed along a question from several: Was this something i wanted (permanently)? or expected to happen?  The simple answer is no, it is/was not, but how it transpired is not so clear cut.  i chose to accept certain risks, and there were also added unknowns which i allowed to contribute.  The result has become my unique journey with MsPatty, and i must live with it.  From this, MsPatty happily reminds me of the pride She feels having modified my sexual responses.  From this, She knows She will always control my sexual future.

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Now for My own words...My balls between sub jason's thighs will be up for My judgement again at the end of the year. Will they remain as they are, or will I finally kill them permanently? Time will only tell. <wicked grin> 

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After Effects: sub jason; 2 years later...

In sub jason's own words...

Judgement Day - 2 Years Later

MsPatty's judgement day visit began like it has each of the last two years.  After a mid-late afternoon arrival, and a few preparations, i am shackled to Her gallows for several hours.  i am left alone to rest and think about the evening ahead.  It will be a long night.

Over the past two years, i have noticed It is easy to detach and write clinical words, but eventually the reality of these words sets in.  i was initially hopeful of an eventual (if extended) recovery, then began accepting some lost capacity, but neither really happened.  An hour's effort on MsPatty's part, back on December 26, 2019, resulted in my current sexually dysfunctional state.  i have been increasingly aware the past few months of how much permanent damage has transpired, and that what i am no longer able to participate in.  It is also obvious that not much more effort by MsPatty would be needed to take away my remaining sexual function.

MsPatty has been very vague these past few months about what may happen tonight - other than posting the options from past examples.  i will unknowingly experience each of Her examples this evening as the videos shows... 

First - The Burdizzo - it is easily the most painful.  She has had me experience it more than once before.  There are three points of pain, not just one or two.  One is the hard pressure on the cords, but it is felt deep in the abdomen.  The other is the skin pinching - of both sides (top and bottom) - of the scrotum skin.  There is no escaping this sharp pain while restrained.  MsPatty teases me with the firm pressure of Her tool on each side but doesn't fully clamp.  i am shaking by the end from just Her half-effort.  i think there was enough pressure applied long enough to affect at least one of the cords for the short term.

Second - The Tri-Bander - Her band easily goes on extra high and begins its suffocating grip.  For me, it is probably the easiest fantasy castration method to succumb to, and MsPatty knows it.  What becomes obvious after 10-15 minutes, though, is that the 3+ month chastity - leading up to the events two years ago - had me on an edge which deferred the growing pain.  This time, after the earlier Burdizzo activity, with only 5-weeks lead up chastity (and much lower hormone levels now), i feel the deep pinching more quickly.  Deciding against banding at just past 20 minutes, MsPatty cuts the band off (painfully).  i am now pretty sure that more damage has been done on top of the previous.  i have no idea how i lasted a full hour back two years ago, or even the ~30 minutes on each of the prior first or second times banded.

Finally, MsPatty pulls out Her medical trays while i am still trying to process the effects of the previous two activities.  She teases the video viewers (and me) with delivering Everclear injections to further damage Her testicles between my thighs, followed by what felt like a surgical incision attempt to (logically next) extract and sever Her testicles from the cords.   Backing off from each, She decides instead on the game of letting me struggle to achieve erections and pursue my last? opportunities for penetrative sex.  Of course, this is now further controlled by Her; with only two erection-enabling pills offered to me.  This also assumes i can find a willing partner/opportunity in this continuing pandemic.  It is also yet to be determined if any of the activities earlier this evening have set back my otherwise slow recovery toward the bottom edge of normal testosterone production.

What occurs next, off camera, has me mostly numb, even more than a week later.  i cannot be certain what transpires, as i cannot see, but MsPatty had allowed me to smell the Everclear contents in Her needle - with a short squirt near my nose.  Soon after, Her left testicle is pierced by the needle, and the fluid contents quickly fills it up, with pressure and burning sensations.  i know it is the more damaged organ from the injections two years ago.  If it was the Everclear i smelled, organ function probably won't continue.  i was not paying as close attention to Her activities after this.  i think She may have injected some into Her right testicle, or may She just inserted the needle for effect, or maybe nothing happened to it.  i was still trying to process the moment just prior.

Some time will pass, and i will eventually be permitted to achieve a release (hardness elusive w/o blue pill).  What had been built up in the past ~5 weeks of chastity is then spent after great struggle, which further amuses MsPatty.  i am thinking She is envisioning what a future? sexual partner might experience, if i get the chance. 

For the last week after the visit, both testicles have been larger and swollen for several days but have somewhat lessened over this time.  The left will still fluctuate in hardness and size.  The urge to release again strikes at 3, 5, and 7 days. The output contents are primarily clearer liquid, containing less milky-white, although there is some, but each is only one small pulse followed by some dribble - not encouraging.  One of the signs of sexual failure implied by a past questionnaire is the urge to release more often while one still can.  Getting hard at all has also been more stressful each time, possibly a further symptom.  i know it could be the earlier Burdizzo and band effects still in play, combined with my damaged state.  It could also be what MsPatty introduced off-camera.  MsPatty, of course, also gave me those two blue pills to 'try again' over the next few months, implying that i might be just fine after a week or two... or to just find out that even the pills won't work for me the next time...

It feels like MsPatty has inserted a dildo in my ear, it pokes out the other, and Her hips are stroking Her strap-on mind-fuck to its limit...or maybe now i am fighting to accept another new reality...i don't know.  i am not sure what the next year, or even 3 months, holds.  i just know that normal sex with a woman is no longer possible, and that MsPatty controls what little heterosexual experiences i might still be able to achieve.

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Judgement Day 2021: sub jason...

 

Yes indeed, Judgement Day 2021 for sub jason finally came on New Year's Eve. My decision wasn't swift, I considered all My options and made the choice that fulfilled My desires for the time being. 

Curious what happened? Oh yes, I am in the mood to share so check out the 4 videos below on My video gallery. 

Over the next few weeks, I will be posting more so keep an eye out.

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After Effects: sub jason, questionnaire after ~2 years

From 19 months ago (5/2020), sub jason filled out this form with some points of castration experiences made by others.  his answers then, and now at 24 months since 12/26/2019, appear side-by-side:

For the first month or so:

    You may not physically feel any different, although the internal feeling that something is missing slowly creeps in.

 5Mos: Generally true, but the first 2 weeks was masked mostly by organ swelling and regional pain.

24Mos: i continue to feel sexually inadequate between my thighs.

    You will gradually lose your sex drive.

 5Mos: i had little to none soon after until about 3+ months later. While some has returned, it's still currently low.

24Mos: The interest in a partner has settled.  my basic desire is for an orgasm once or twice a week by masturbation, which is all i am able to achieve.

Emotionally, you tend to want to masturbate more and more, while it is still possible.

 5Mos: This was true, but i held myself to about twice a week for release measurement purposes. The urge to know if they were still working was the prominent interest.

24Mos: i edge constantly, but rarely get hard. i am biologically unable to produce enough fluid for an enjoyable release more than 1-2 times a week.

Past a few weeks to a month:

You will have random hot flashes and night sweats, and they may continue for weeks, months, or more.

 5Mos: True, and they continued with slightly less intensity past 3 months, but rare now at 5 months.

24Mos: i am more sensitive to hard work and more excessive temps.  The struggle to regulate my body temperature/comfort zone is more noticeable.

    Your penis will slowly shrink and atrophy.

 5Mos: It lost ~20% of its former erect length, unknown girth loss (erect) in the initial weeks. It has regained about half of what length was lost.

24Mos: i have not regained any additional length.  Achieving sufficient firmness still takes effort.  Except for the brief period before a release, i am a stubby but semi-soft/thicker 3+".

    Your penis will lose sensitivity, with physical contact becoming more like any other part of your skin.

 5Mos: True. It has since regained some sensitivity after 3+ months, but not back to what it was.

24Mos: The sensitivity level is about the same as it was over a year ago.  It continues to affect my ability to become and stay hard and aroused.

    As your testicles atrophy, you will lose most of the sexual feelings once centered in your groin region.

 5Mos: It had produced a void feeling in the region soon after, for several weeks, which dissipated to neutral and a slight recovery after some hormone production rebounded near 3+ months.

24Mos: Much of my past evaluation was masked by the optimism that my libido was still returning.  my libido is very weak.  my loins feel neutral most of the time.

    Your testicles will lose mass, and your scrotum will shrink.

 5Mos: They lost ~50% in volume and have only recently regained a small of that amount back.

24Mos: The volume calculations at 24 months, and visual evaluation, indicate a testicle volume which has settled just below human male average.

    Erections will become less firm, then weak, until they become impossible to achieve.

 5Mos: Erections became difficult with physical stimulation, impossible to achieve by mental efforts, and only recently improved a little approaching 4-5 months.

24Mos: Erections remain an effort to achieve and require multiple sources of stimulation to gain and maintain.  i am otherwise limp all of the time.

    M/F sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

    M/Eunuch sexual dysphoria will be reduced.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

    You may experience more emotional episodes.

Not an issue before, 5Mos, or at 24Mos.

Longer Term: COVID isolation protocol has made some of this difficult to directly attribute.

    You may lose upper body muscle and strength.

Some may have been lost at this point, with a note toward both age and COVID lifestyle contributing to reduced physical activity.

    You will likely gain abdominal fat.

 No change in weight @ 2+ months, but heavier at 5 months and more so toward 24 months due to world events (COVID) and reduced physical activity.

    You will stop looking at women within a sexual context.

 5Mos: This was true particularly during the 1–2-month period. Due to a lack of being able to sexually perform, there is reduced interest.

24Mos: The interest returned for a while, but the reality of my inability to perform naturally has been proven.  My desire to pursue someone, then reveal i am impotent, seems like a waste of effort.

    Mustache and bear growth reduces dramatically.

 Not seen yet.

    Body hair softens, thins, or disappears.

 Did not occur, although some slowing of baldness may have happened.

    You will feel as if you are asexual.

 Did not occur.

    Female breasts may develop over a period of a couple of years.

 Did not occur. 

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Current Measurements: sub jason.

Current measurements of My testicles between sub jason's thighs. As you can see from the first measurements in March 2020, they have increased in size since the original measurements 3 months after being banded and injected with Everclear. This increase happened during the healed process.

- Left testicle:

March 2020: 3.6cm x 2.6cm x 1.6cm -> 62.731
May 2020: 3.65cm x 2.8cm x 1.65cm -> 70.635
July 2020: 3.7cm x 2.9cm x 1.7cm -> 76.407
Aug 2020: 3.85cm x 2.9cm x 1.85cm -> 86.520
Sept 2020: 3.9cm x 3.2cm x 1.9cm -> 99.324
Oct 2020: 3.85cm x 3.2cm x 1.85cm -> 95.470
Nov 2020: 3.95cm x 3.3cm x 1.85cm -> 101.011
Dec 2020: 4.0cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 117.286
Jan 2021: 4.1cm x 3.5cm x 2.0cm -> 120.218
Feb 2021: 4.25cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 129.557
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 137.18

*Dec 2021: 4.15cm x 3.55cm x 2.05cm -> 126.51

- Right testicle:

March 2020: 3.5cm x 2.2cm x 1.4cm -> 45.155
May 2020: 3.6cm x 2.5cm x 1.6cm -> 60.318
July 2020: 3.95cm x 2.9cm x 1.9cm -> 91.166
Aug 2020: 4.1cm x 3.1cm x x1.9cm -> 101.155
Sept 2020: 4.3cm x 3.4cm x 2.2cm -> 126.803
Oct 2020: 4.2cm x 3.5cm x 2.35cm -> 144.701
Nov 2020: 4.35cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 140.304
Dec 2020: 4.4cm x 3.5cm x 2.4cm -> 141.916
Jan 2021: 4.45cm x 3.55cm x 2.5cm -> 165.431
Feb 2021: 4.45cm x 3.6cm x 2.5cm -> 167.761
Mar 2021: 4.5cm x 3.5cm x 2.05cm -> 135.25

*Dec 2021: 4.2cm x 3.45cm x 2.05cm -> 124.43 

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